03-04-2018, 10:20 PM
Nothing too special, but I see to notice change in my pornography, and masturbation pattern.
One, it seems that my taste for porn has slightly expanded. In the past, I didn't like hardcore pornography (okay, what I meant was I pretty much liked only sensual ones.), but now I started to enjoy a few of hardcore ones. (Or not necessarily sensual ones.) Can I handle super hardcore stuff? Nope, but nonetheless, I began enjoying a bit stronger stuff more than before. This isn't all that different from my previous DMSI runs.
Also on the porn note, begin to like POV ones more. It gives me more like the feeling of actually having sex. I didn't like POV before, but I suppose this isn't all that different from my previous runs with DMSI either.
Third thing I notice is change of masturbation pattern. During the long break (between 3.1 and 3.2) I didn't really have masturbation pattern. Sometimes, I'd do it daily, and some other times, I wouldn't do it for extended period of time, like 1 to 2 weeks. Since I listened to DMSI 3.2, it has become to a point that I'd do it for once per two days.
One thing that is very different about masturbation experience is that with previous version of DMSI, masturbation itself felt like resistance, or I felt like I had lots of resistance to masturbation itself. With this version, I don't feel any resistance to either the act itself, or feeling masturbation as a form of resistance. It just feels as if I am doing it more naturally like as if I am doing it in order to control my optimum sexual energy/fertility stuff. I don't know, all of it is so smooth that I don't feel any negativity associated with it.
Still, I still look at porn, nude pictures, and pictures of beautiful and hot girls everyday. It's like a habit. With previous version of DMSI, one small part of me felt as if I had to stop doing that. With this version, I don't feel that. It feels to me that this is a natural thing to do, and I'd just do it. (But of course, I wouldn't do that when my family member's around.) Some of the stuff I look at turn me on, but most of them don't turn me on or off. Rather, I look at some gorgeous women, and appreciate such beauty, and sexual energy that I can sorta feel from the picture or video.
Lastly, I am having much ease telling others (such as mom and cousin) that I find the girl good looking when I see some cute girls on TV.
Again, no external stuff, and most of it is pretty much internal stuff. I am going to need to find some opportunity to actually test the effectiveness. (Although it may be a terrible idea to do it, as MeToo stuff is getting really out of hand here, and people are starting to going nuts with accusation, and being protective, and etc.)
One, it seems that my taste for porn has slightly expanded. In the past, I didn't like hardcore pornography (okay, what I meant was I pretty much liked only sensual ones.), but now I started to enjoy a few of hardcore ones. (Or not necessarily sensual ones.) Can I handle super hardcore stuff? Nope, but nonetheless, I began enjoying a bit stronger stuff more than before. This isn't all that different from my previous DMSI runs.
Also on the porn note, begin to like POV ones more. It gives me more like the feeling of actually having sex. I didn't like POV before, but I suppose this isn't all that different from my previous runs with DMSI either.
Third thing I notice is change of masturbation pattern. During the long break (between 3.1 and 3.2) I didn't really have masturbation pattern. Sometimes, I'd do it daily, and some other times, I wouldn't do it for extended period of time, like 1 to 2 weeks. Since I listened to DMSI 3.2, it has become to a point that I'd do it for once per two days.
One thing that is very different about masturbation experience is that with previous version of DMSI, masturbation itself felt like resistance, or I felt like I had lots of resistance to masturbation itself. With this version, I don't feel any resistance to either the act itself, or feeling masturbation as a form of resistance. It just feels as if I am doing it more naturally like as if I am doing it in order to control my optimum sexual energy/fertility stuff. I don't know, all of it is so smooth that I don't feel any negativity associated with it.
Still, I still look at porn, nude pictures, and pictures of beautiful and hot girls everyday. It's like a habit. With previous version of DMSI, one small part of me felt as if I had to stop doing that. With this version, I don't feel that. It feels to me that this is a natural thing to do, and I'd just do it. (But of course, I wouldn't do that when my family member's around.) Some of the stuff I look at turn me on, but most of them don't turn me on or off. Rather, I look at some gorgeous women, and appreciate such beauty, and sexual energy that I can sorta feel from the picture or video.
Lastly, I am having much ease telling others (such as mom and cousin) that I find the girl good looking when I see some cute girls on TV.
Again, no external stuff, and most of it is pretty much internal stuff. I am going to need to find some opportunity to actually test the effectiveness. (Although it may be a terrible idea to do it, as MeToo stuff is getting really out of hand here, and people are starting to going nuts with accusation, and being protective, and etc.)
