Needing to focus: which sub should I stick with NOW?

[Benjamin]

If AM6 is too difficult then UD, SE or E2. You were going good on UD from what I read.

From what you're saying an extended period on one of those sounds best.

I picked up Self Esteem 5.5. Ran it a week, felt uneasy and fearful of missing out of "something"

Sounds like your mind resisting something about it. But Self Esteem really sounds like something you need.