DMSI 3.2 it's official

[mat422]

Hmmm really interesting. I'm just going to keep journaling the whole inner workings of DMSI. I'm really attuned to how my subconscious behaves now and the things it does to derail me. One thing, it's a bit like OCD, I'll feel like I need to go inside myself and prepare or figure out something. It's hard to explain, but you know when you have a problem and you try to think of the solution? But you can't solve the problem and you sort of keep hitting that wall? And even though you hit the wall, you just want to solve it so you keep obsessing on it. Haha, just realized maybe this is my subconscious trying to figure out how to bypass the wall and it can't. Interesting how that was the first word that popped into my head when thinking of metaphors.

All I know is that I have to stay on track. At this point it feels like a mental itch I want to scratch. But when I do there's nothing there or no relief. Which is good because then my mind doesn't have things to dwell on and procrastinate with. However that initial impulse is rather annoying, I'm hoping as I get further down the line my mind is more aligned with the goals of DMSI and I don't have this back and forth thing as much where it feels like 2 sides pulling back and forth.