I broke my no fap after 4 or 5 days yesterday. I noticed I wans't able to hold the cum in it was way too intense. I hope by not masterbating when we have sex our sensitivity is overly intense because of the fact we aren't fapping. Also after I fapped and fapped again after I still wasnt able to hold my cum in. my sensitivty was so high 3 years ago when I had a BJ i came instantly.
I had sex with an escort last week and i had a blow job without condom and i was able to not cum, also during sex i didn't cum either. So I hope DMSI isn't making me cum fast as a form of resistance to the sexual module. (and i didnt masterbate beforehand like i always did before to reduce sensitivty)
I been thinking about that chick again, feelings of anger and resentment and bitterness. Not overly intense feelings but its definitely there. There are moments where I feel hopeful and great and other moments I feel down.
It's a rough time in my life atm. I feel unloved as a whole. I have no one in my life that loves me. Only my dog.
I have such a strong desire to build wealth and live the life I want. I always had this feeling but I noticed on DMSI it increases even more.
I feel more alpha overall and also more sexual and confident in person.
My stare into womens eyes is very powerful and intense. Today and yesterday in the gym I noticed I was way more attractive to the women around me and also didn't give a fuck about them. Like I didn't feel like, oh there is a chick there, or feel awkward or uncomftorable.
the IDGAF feeling is stronger then previous versions. Feels like the needyness I had on 3.1 DMSI and other versions isn't there anymore.
I know I am going to achieve all the things I want in life, but I question if real love even exists or it's all about value. And when that value leaves the love leaves too.
The older I get the more subconsiously mysognistic I become, even though every fiber of my body loves woman more then anything else in life, Woman > Animals = Music
I haven't smoked weed in 6 days. Don't plan on it. Had the opportunity to smoke yesterday and the day before but I didn't.
I had sex with an escort last week and i had a blow job without condom and i was able to not cum, also during sex i didn't cum either. So I hope DMSI isn't making me cum fast as a form of resistance to the sexual module. (and i didnt masterbate beforehand like i always did before to reduce sensitivty)
I been thinking about that chick again, feelings of anger and resentment and bitterness. Not overly intense feelings but its definitely there. There are moments where I feel hopeful and great and other moments I feel down.
It's a rough time in my life atm. I feel unloved as a whole. I have no one in my life that loves me. Only my dog.
I have such a strong desire to build wealth and live the life I want. I always had this feeling but I noticed on DMSI it increases even more.
I feel more alpha overall and also more sexual and confident in person.
My stare into womens eyes is very powerful and intense. Today and yesterday in the gym I noticed I was way more attractive to the women around me and also didn't give a fuck about them. Like I didn't feel like, oh there is a chick there, or feel awkward or uncomftorable.
the IDGAF feeling is stronger then previous versions. Feels like the needyness I had on 3.1 DMSI and other versions isn't there anymore.
I know I am going to achieve all the things I want in life, but I question if real love even exists or it's all about value. And when that value leaves the love leaves too.
The older I get the more subconsiously mysognistic I become, even though every fiber of my body loves woman more then anything else in life, Woman > Animals = Music
I haven't smoked weed in 6 days. Don't plan on it. Had the opportunity to smoke yesterday and the day before but I didn't.
