02-22-2018, 01:41 AM
the massive feelings of guilt and fear subsided a little bit and i was very happy yesterday for no obvious reason:-)
what i have now is flashback of two particular incidents that keep popping up in my head: I had a crash on one girl almost a year ago and yesterday i was thinking about that a lot. It is as if my mind is trying to digest the loss. I think i am healing from that slowly. the same thing also abotu a russian girl i dated once but i could not keep her for reasons beyond my reach. i feel i got thick-skinned since rejection affects me now really a day or two and i move on...
I am also rejecting some girls, which is a new thing for me. before I d keep them hanging just not to lose them completely. now i dont care!
I really feel that this new version will be a major step forwards. I say this because of what I am already feeling and experiencing before even starting the new version. I feel the cracks that allow me to derail are getting cemented one after the other.
what i have now is flashback of two particular incidents that keep popping up in my head: I had a crash on one girl almost a year ago and yesterday i was thinking about that a lot. It is as if my mind is trying to digest the loss. I think i am healing from that slowly. the same thing also abotu a russian girl i dated once but i could not keep her for reasons beyond my reach. i feel i got thick-skinned since rejection affects me now really a day or two and i move on...
I am also rejecting some girls, which is a new thing for me. before I d keep them hanging just not to lose them completely. now i dont care!
I really feel that this new version will be a major step forwards. I say this because of what I am already feeling and experiencing before even starting the new version. I feel the cracks that allow me to derail are getting cemented one after the other.
Generally, when you start using a subliminal that seriously conflicts with something you have in your subconscious programming, the subconscious will attempt to get you to change to something else in order to escape having to change it's programming
