02-13-2018, 05:50 PM
Sometimes I google obscure topics like "mentally castrated" and thus I found this. I can relate pretty well to what this guy is saying:
Fuck being normal.
Quote:Back in the day I used to have interest in girls whenever I saw them, but after years of being alone and never having a girlfriend or any kind of affection from women I feel completely incapable of building any sort of relationship with them. In a way, I feel betrayed, because 98 % of men I know here were able to get girlfriends at some point in their life before they reached the age of 25. What the hell did I do to deserve being constantly ignored and snubbed by women? Another thing is, at this point, I feel like I have been mentally gelded by society. Due to constant rejection, indifference towards me and my social anxiety I'm not able to approach girls in real life, my mind no longer permits me to see girls as potential partners, I even stopped having sexual thoughts about women and my sex drive has been waning in recent months. My perception of relationship is totally warped anyways, due to my experiences in the past where I had to pay lots of $ to prostitutes so that they spend some hours with me and give me love and affection. Now I can hardly believe that it's possible to get any kind of affection from a girl without paying her in cash upfront.
This society managed to castrate me on psychological level and I don't see how things can change for me. My mind is totally twisted and I'm just unable to do things like flirting - even having a normal conversation with a girl is a difficult task now. I wish I could be normal...
Fuck being normal.
