02-13-2018, 05:03 AM
I've had glimpses of what it might be like to have genuine self esteem, and they made me think that maybe a healthy and sustainable self esteem is really what's missing and what I need. This Sub has confirmed that. I feel like I've learned the most important mode of being for living a good life through this Sub.
I was concerned that what I'd get is something that offers a fleetingly good feeling, instead what I have is support in the responsibility I have been prompted to take for my own life and well being. It seems like I have the tools now to weather almost anything, move beyond this and actually thrive. I'm far more productive at work, gaining new skills and abilities. I'm actually able to think and speak more clearly because I can manage the critic which held me back before. I have a new set of foundational values which I revert to when things get out of hand and my self image and esteem start dropping.
I genuinely feel like a few more months of this practice will leave me open to accepting other subs. I could never have fully adopted the subs that have come before because I had no reason to believe I deserved or warranted getting what I want - now with my values clear, I see no reason why I shouldn't merit everything I strive for, by virtue of the effort and commitment.
I would suggest to anyone struggling to get the best out of these subs to examine clearly whether your feeling worthy of change and whether your inability to take complete responsibility for your life (100% for everything, without reservation) is holding you back. If it is, then do this sub, learn and embed the lessons deep within. If it works how it's worked for me then it will take you to a place where you don't need Subs and you're good to face life, but you may choose to use them for support in your goals, and get the most of them with your volition and commitment.
People are better with me, doing things for me, and are more respectful - I could go on about all of the instances of this being displayed but it doesn't matter at all. What matters is that I am reconciled with myself or at least I have the tools to repeatedly do this now - and am ready now to move forward with my life.
I was concerned that what I'd get is something that offers a fleetingly good feeling, instead what I have is support in the responsibility I have been prompted to take for my own life and well being. It seems like I have the tools now to weather almost anything, move beyond this and actually thrive. I'm far more productive at work, gaining new skills and abilities. I'm actually able to think and speak more clearly because I can manage the critic which held me back before. I have a new set of foundational values which I revert to when things get out of hand and my self image and esteem start dropping.
I genuinely feel like a few more months of this practice will leave me open to accepting other subs. I could never have fully adopted the subs that have come before because I had no reason to believe I deserved or warranted getting what I want - now with my values clear, I see no reason why I shouldn't merit everything I strive for, by virtue of the effort and commitment.
I would suggest to anyone struggling to get the best out of these subs to examine clearly whether your feeling worthy of change and whether your inability to take complete responsibility for your life (100% for everything, without reservation) is holding you back. If it is, then do this sub, learn and embed the lessons deep within. If it works how it's worked for me then it will take you to a place where you don't need Subs and you're good to face life, but you may choose to use them for support in your goals, and get the most of them with your volition and commitment.
People are better with me, doing things for me, and are more respectful - I could go on about all of the instances of this being displayed but it doesn't matter at all. What matters is that I am reconciled with myself or at least I have the tools to repeatedly do this now - and am ready now to move forward with my life.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
