01-25-2018, 05:25 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-25-2018, 05:29 AM by DavisMind91.)
Stage 3, Day 12:
For the most part I have to say that the only blatant part of the programming I can recall being expressed prominently, is the STC programming. I've gotten pretty busy between school and work, which I must say, I'm not too much feeling either one right now. In school I once again find myself getting very annoyed with my professors just like last semester. I easily notice how inefficient their teaching methods are which makes me feel like I'm wasting my time sitting in class.
With work, It's become mind numbing and repetitive. But I already know that moving from one job to the next will generate the whole "same shit, different day" effect. I've had a few other jobs and eventually they all show the same thing: incompetent leadership, office politics put before competency, people that complain everyday but never do a thing to move up or move out, blah blah blah. I'm feeling an increased need for change in all areas of life, obviously it's up to me to make it happen.
Also had to officially cut my listening down to 8 hours daily. Not even because of my schedule but because I keep being pushed beyond my mental limits for right now. Feels like my brain turns to mush after 12 hours of listening time and if I'm at work, I can kiss my brain cells goodbye about halfway through my shift. This may be a form of resistance but even so I have other life areas that demand my energy right now.
For the most part I have to say that the only blatant part of the programming I can recall being expressed prominently, is the STC programming. I've gotten pretty busy between school and work, which I must say, I'm not too much feeling either one right now. In school I once again find myself getting very annoyed with my professors just like last semester. I easily notice how inefficient their teaching methods are which makes me feel like I'm wasting my time sitting in class.
With work, It's become mind numbing and repetitive. But I already know that moving from one job to the next will generate the whole "same shit, different day" effect. I've had a few other jobs and eventually they all show the same thing: incompetent leadership, office politics put before competency, people that complain everyday but never do a thing to move up or move out, blah blah blah. I'm feeling an increased need for change in all areas of life, obviously it's up to me to make it happen.
Also had to officially cut my listening down to 8 hours daily. Not even because of my schedule but because I keep being pushed beyond my mental limits for right now. Feels like my brain turns to mush after 12 hours of listening time and if I'm at work, I can kiss my brain cells goodbye about halfway through my shift. This may be a form of resistance but even so I have other life areas that demand my energy right now.
