01-13-2018, 11:55 PM
I can't sleep so I might as well update this oddball journal. Who even reads this stuff?
I've been listening to Albanian music like my life depends on it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3Ukj6WmFU8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NfzB3it908
And it very may well... I like their style and attitude. Plus their vocalizations and hand expressions. I need to stop repressing myself in those ways and have more flow. I already have good flow but it needs to be turned up a notch a bit louder.
I have left my solitary mountainside abode and ventured into the world beyond. It's strange, there are people out here and well, I'm learning that environment can play a huge part in situations and attitudes but of course I want to see manifestation trump that.
I think DMSI is still manifesting, man that program is strong. I ended up in my hometown city (in the rich part where my family is from) and right when I pulled up in front of an organic grocery a teen girl with one of those gooey bubble butts came right along wearing loose leggings but that ass was still like damn. I met her outside the bathrooms as we walked past each other. Maybe I shouldn't say I'm telepathic but I sensed that she was projecting a bunch of angst at me. I haven't felt a psychic impulse like that from someone in a long time, it's like everyone is a zombie where I've been at, because this girl had some juice to her. Anyways, it was obvious she was in headspace and disconnected from her body yet flaunting it... Of course I was too chickenshit to say anything nor really inclined to, just locked eyes. See, when I can't even approach or aggressively seduce a girl who is wearing such provocative clothing that just makes me another emasculated faggot. That's why I hate being around prickteases in public and not being able to do anything. Drives me insane.
On the UD side, I ended up binging and eating a greasy burger with a malt. Haven't had junk like that in months. And I started smoking again... Haha must be an emotional issue. At least I downed 6 raw eggs with that meal so I got some real nutrients that will turn into sex juice.
The black front desk girl at my hotel was really helpful getting me checked in since I came wandering in like some lost puppy. Where am I and what am I doing? To be continued...
I've been listening to Albanian music like my life depends on it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3Ukj6WmFU8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NfzB3it908
And it very may well... I like their style and attitude. Plus their vocalizations and hand expressions. I need to stop repressing myself in those ways and have more flow. I already have good flow but it needs to be turned up a notch a bit louder.
I have left my solitary mountainside abode and ventured into the world beyond. It's strange, there are people out here and well, I'm learning that environment can play a huge part in situations and attitudes but of course I want to see manifestation trump that.
I think DMSI is still manifesting, man that program is strong. I ended up in my hometown city (in the rich part where my family is from) and right when I pulled up in front of an organic grocery a teen girl with one of those gooey bubble butts came right along wearing loose leggings but that ass was still like damn. I met her outside the bathrooms as we walked past each other. Maybe I shouldn't say I'm telepathic but I sensed that she was projecting a bunch of angst at me. I haven't felt a psychic impulse like that from someone in a long time, it's like everyone is a zombie where I've been at, because this girl had some juice to her. Anyways, it was obvious she was in headspace and disconnected from her body yet flaunting it... Of course I was too chickenshit to say anything nor really inclined to, just locked eyes. See, when I can't even approach or aggressively seduce a girl who is wearing such provocative clothing that just makes me another emasculated faggot. That's why I hate being around prickteases in public and not being able to do anything. Drives me insane.
On the UD side, I ended up binging and eating a greasy burger with a malt. Haven't had junk like that in months. And I started smoking again... Haha must be an emotional issue. At least I downed 6 raw eggs with that meal so I got some real nutrients that will turn into sex juice.
The black front desk girl at my hotel was really helpful getting me checked in since I came wandering in like some lost puppy. Where am I and what am I doing? To be continued...
