01-13-2018, 05:39 AM
Really would like to go back to A. But I'm going to stick this out for the sake of trying something new. I might just cut it back to 32 days and if nothing happens give myself a break until 3.2 comes out.
I'm realizing that this fear of not being good enough for others just stems from my own feelings of not being good enough. This has plagued me for years now. It has caused a lot of my anxiety and my inability to form relationships with people. It always felt like I carried around some deep dark secret I had to hide from people that made me avoidant.
And I'm realizing that I'm doing a lot of conscious overriding on DMSI that I thought was helping, but wasn't getting to the core of myself. I don't really want to be hypervigilant anymore with watching my behavior and being on guard for negativity, I'd rather just change it all and be. Unfortunately it seems like I do exhibit reversal resistance responses that sabotage my progress with dmsi. I need to focus more on why I'm so afraid of moving forward. But not just the fear, what's behind the fear. I think when it comes to fear we really only fear things that we believe to be true about ourselves. So if I'm afraid of people leaving me, rejecting the real me, being good enough, that means deep down my subconscious believes I'm not good enough or that nobody will like who I am.
I'm realizing that this fear of not being good enough for others just stems from my own feelings of not being good enough. This has plagued me for years now. It has caused a lot of my anxiety and my inability to form relationships with people. It always felt like I carried around some deep dark secret I had to hide from people that made me avoidant.
And I'm realizing that I'm doing a lot of conscious overriding on DMSI that I thought was helping, but wasn't getting to the core of myself. I don't really want to be hypervigilant anymore with watching my behavior and being on guard for negativity, I'd rather just change it all and be. Unfortunately it seems like I do exhibit reversal resistance responses that sabotage my progress with dmsi. I need to focus more on why I'm so afraid of moving forward. But not just the fear, what's behind the fear. I think when it comes to fear we really only fear things that we believe to be true about ourselves. So if I'm afraid of people leaving me, rejecting the real me, being good enough, that means deep down my subconscious believes I'm not good enough or that nobody will like who I am.
INFP
