So I've noticed when dmsi really hits my subconscious i get this adrenaline spike. At first I thought it was the euphoria hit Shannon put in, but upon closer inspection it's definitely a strong fear. Makes me feel like a kid again when I was terrified of so many things and cried when things got too scary. I'm realizing telling myself to stop being a coward doesn't help. This definitely feels more like a scared inner child than a grown adult avoiding stuff.
This is where things get complicated because I'm hitting core fears that I'm not consciously aware of. There's definitely a part of me inside myself that I've silenced over the years to push forward. Unfortunately it seems I've lost that connection with myself and now I can't be honest about what holds me back because I've repressed it.
This is where things get complicated because I'm hitting core fears that I'm not consciously aware of. There's definitely a part of me inside myself that I've silenced over the years to push forward. Unfortunately it seems I've lost that connection with myself and now I can't be honest about what holds me back because I've repressed it.
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