12-16-2017, 12:12 PM
My mind's throwing all kinds of crap at me today. I've been thinking about switching back to 2 loops because Shannon said it was optimal. But I think this is just my subconscious trying to weasel it's way out of the influence of the sub. Also me worrying that I'm using DMSI the wrong way. But I've realized two things. 2 loops is optimal for most people. I'm not most people. I've got a lot of crap I have to deal with and a lot of reluctance to dealing with that crap. And if 6 loops was truly causing me to sabotage myself it would be evident in my actions and self dialogue. But so far I've had far less rumination on 6 loops, I don't fall into my depressive spirals, and I've had this smoothness to myself where I'm not being overly calculating with my actions and state of being. Living in the moment, feeling what it's like to just be and stop over analyzing every little thing I do or say.
However 6 loops does put a strain on my brain. Writing this out I have probably made at least a few mistakes. Dropped words here and there. But as of right now it seems like the only way to bypass my resistance is to really hammer it with more loops. Maybe with 3.2 that won't be as necessary, but for now I'll take the drop in mental performance if it means moving forward with my life and to stop living with so much fear.
However 6 loops does put a strain on my brain. Writing this out I have probably made at least a few mistakes. Dropped words here and there. But as of right now it seems like the only way to bypass my resistance is to really hammer it with more loops. Maybe with 3.2 that won't be as necessary, but for now I'll take the drop in mental performance if it means moving forward with my life and to stop living with so much fear.
INFP
