People just talk, talk, talk, talk and never listen. They are so consumed by themselves, their opinions and their feelings that they don't see what is happening around them.
This make me tired and quiet frankly agitated at times. My dad is absorbed about what he thinks and his opinions, and my mom is consumed by her emotions of being a victim constantly. They don't see me, but see who they think I am. They don't listen to what I really say, but what they think I say.
It's hard to have a normal conversation with someone who behaves like that, so I am close to giving up hope to it at times, when I'm just to tired to try. Whatever I think. I just care about making myself have a good time and hope they come to their senses at some time.
Their conversations are inclined towards negativity, problems in the world, problems here, problems there, but they don't realize that the biggest problem in their lives is created by themselves.
I work towards the attitude that I can't change other people, they can only change themselves, and the only thing you can do is to be yourself and not get dragged into their negativity. I'm close to getting there, but it's an ongoing process that still take energy to uphold. At this time I don't have the energy to take an active role, where I instead focus on changing my attitude and behavior towards other people, which I surely believe will be beneficial at times in the future.
Overall mood
I feel overall more calm, more peaceful in myself and with more energy in the daily life and in my work-outs, like I am close to getting in contact with my strength again.
Meditation are becoming deeper and I feel more connect to myself, but I still have some work to do here because I can sometimes feel depleted and weak when my emotions come into focus, like I have a trauma that I haven't processed yet which is still blocking my energy. I'm confident that it will be taken care of by my daily routine which I now can do without that much effort. Even the work-outs seam to be done without much hassle and I actually look forward to them sometimes
Starting to get some christmas spirit, getting good ideas for presents to the people I have planned buying to (yes I am buying to my parents even though I'm tired of them..). I am getting more creative overall, and feel more and more life "myself". Sleep is getting better, even though I can feel really lost when I wake up. Have more and more plans in my calendar for social events. So I am focusing on the positive
This make me tired and quiet frankly agitated at times. My dad is absorbed about what he thinks and his opinions, and my mom is consumed by her emotions of being a victim constantly. They don't see me, but see who they think I am. They don't listen to what I really say, but what they think I say.
It's hard to have a normal conversation with someone who behaves like that, so I am close to giving up hope to it at times, when I'm just to tired to try. Whatever I think. I just care about making myself have a good time and hope they come to their senses at some time.
Their conversations are inclined towards negativity, problems in the world, problems here, problems there, but they don't realize that the biggest problem in their lives is created by themselves.
I work towards the attitude that I can't change other people, they can only change themselves, and the only thing you can do is to be yourself and not get dragged into their negativity. I'm close to getting there, but it's an ongoing process that still take energy to uphold. At this time I don't have the energy to take an active role, where I instead focus on changing my attitude and behavior towards other people, which I surely believe will be beneficial at times in the future.
Overall mood
I feel overall more calm, more peaceful in myself and with more energy in the daily life and in my work-outs, like I am close to getting in contact with my strength again.
Meditation are becoming deeper and I feel more connect to myself, but I still have some work to do here because I can sometimes feel depleted and weak when my emotions come into focus, like I have a trauma that I haven't processed yet which is still blocking my energy. I'm confident that it will be taken care of by my daily routine which I now can do without that much effort. Even the work-outs seam to be done without much hassle and I actually look forward to them sometimes
Starting to get some christmas spirit, getting good ideas for presents to the people I have planned buying to (yes I am buying to my parents even though I'm tired of them..). I am getting more creative overall, and feel more and more life "myself". Sleep is getting better, even though I can feel really lost when I wake up. Have more and more plans in my calendar for social events. So I am focusing on the positive
