12-09-2017, 10:05 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-09-2017, 10:11 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Stage 2
Day 3:
WM2 vibe is not as strong/dark as SM3 but I still feel super angry. Things that would normally be just a little upsetting I still think about it for weeks. It’s driving me crazy, I’m a very calm person usually, I don’t get upset very easily, I have a very high tolerance for hardship. But under this influence which seems very similar to SM3 I get upset very easily. There is a girl that have a not open minded philosophy about how the world should work, I’m getting to know her more and I have a hard time not showing my angry feeling toward her as she is very disrespectful without knowing it. I don’t even want to talk to her anymore, it’s disgusting me. Intellectually I know it’s not really her fault or that there is bigger scheme behind all that. But I can’t let go of all this rage building up. I have seen this king of behavior before and I know there is no way to get around it, only way is just to ignore them, which make me go even crazier as I know I can’t do anything about it, I can only wait, and my patience is near zero.
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Death of johnny, learned who he was. Problems finding a reliable pool for ETN. Trying to buy IOTA.
Day 6:
********* bought some Tron around 0:50pm
***********************. I went to a dancing class of 2 hours at 7:30pm, there wasn’t a lot of people but I had a lot of fun. I made some jokes with the dance teacher. Also one girl seems quite enamored by me as she went to ask me out of nowhere what I wanted for a drink and then later she went to take a chair for me to sit, her friend was surprised by her behavior.
Then I went to a club. I didn’t notice much at first, I thought maybe I was wrong about this ***************, “maybe it won’t be as great as I thought” I said to myself. Then a half drunk cougar came to my table (I was alone eating on a table) she asked me if she could have some fries, she said she was super angry ( she just wanted to talk with me) I gave her some fries, we talked a bit and she kissed on my upper cheek heavily while she said we will see each other on the dancefloor, she was quite interested it seems. I ignored her after that but I noticed she was looking at me from far away.
I went on the dancefloor then, I was feeling proud and confident, I have been that way for at least 3 weeks now. I noticed some women looks but nothing out of the norm I could pinpoint yet.
Then later as the alcohol flowed more into the girls veins things started to happen. I think the first obvious one was a group of blonde girls,partying hard, a bit drunk but not wasted. I came to dance near them, but not completely close. 10 seconds later one of them grab me me from behind to dance, I dance a bit with them but I expected nothing from them,( a bit too young and too crazy)
Then I moved to another place and one girl caress me on my spine with her finger very sensually, I look back to see who it is, and I see a girl looking at me with a big face saying “I’m trying very hard to seduce you”. I look at her proudly (raised eyebrow) then I ignored her as she wasn’t attractive enough. Later on another part of the dance floor a black cougar was staring at me with the same kind of seducing look. Later when I saw them again she did it again, and her friend too, it was around 3 of them I think looking at me directly. I also noticed some pretty girl being bothered, and turning shy and timid when I was there.
There was a very beautiful blond by most standard, but cold type, when I was looking at her at the beginning of the night I didn’t see her once looking at me but maybe she hid it very well. But while dancing I caught her looking at me from far away, she was surprised and tried to hide it.
Also later while sat and talking with a friend a friend girl came to say hi and talk with me, while all this happened I noticed in my side vision that this cold type girl had an emotional reaction, is this jealousy ???, that’s cute.
There was also 2 nice girl being interested in me but there were with a group of jealous male friend trying to protect them from the “threat” that was me.
There was another pretty girl, she didn’t look at me directly but she was getting near me on purpose, putting her hair on my face, and touching me too much as she passed near me to see another of her jealous male friend. I think she was very interested but her male friends were too jealous for her to show any direct sign.
This was a fun night, I don’t think I ever got this level of direct approach from girls before in a club. There were 2 very obvious one, the group of blond directly dancing with me while I did mostly nothing but just go near them. And this alone girl directly touching me seductively.
It’s only the beginning of stage 2, and it’s already better than SM3 to me, even the latter stage of SM3 didn’t produce that kind of obvious seduction. I feel much better too, there is too much to describe but I can express my emotions more naturally with my body language, face expression, etc.
Day 3:
WM2 vibe is not as strong/dark as SM3 but I still feel super angry. Things that would normally be just a little upsetting I still think about it for weeks. It’s driving me crazy, I’m a very calm person usually, I don’t get upset very easily, I have a very high tolerance for hardship. But under this influence which seems very similar to SM3 I get upset very easily. There is a girl that have a not open minded philosophy about how the world should work, I’m getting to know her more and I have a hard time not showing my angry feeling toward her as she is very disrespectful without knowing it. I don’t even want to talk to her anymore, it’s disgusting me. Intellectually I know it’s not really her fault or that there is bigger scheme behind all that. But I can’t let go of all this rage building up. I have seen this king of behavior before and I know there is no way to get around it, only way is just to ignore them, which make me go even crazier as I know I can’t do anything about it, I can only wait, and my patience is near zero.
****************:
Death of johnny, learned who he was. Problems finding a reliable pool for ETN. Trying to buy IOTA.
Day 6:
********* bought some Tron around 0:50pm
***********************. I went to a dancing class of 2 hours at 7:30pm, there wasn’t a lot of people but I had a lot of fun. I made some jokes with the dance teacher. Also one girl seems quite enamored by me as she went to ask me out of nowhere what I wanted for a drink and then later she went to take a chair for me to sit, her friend was surprised by her behavior.
Then I went to a club. I didn’t notice much at first, I thought maybe I was wrong about this ***************, “maybe it won’t be as great as I thought” I said to myself. Then a half drunk cougar came to my table (I was alone eating on a table) she asked me if she could have some fries, she said she was super angry ( she just wanted to talk with me) I gave her some fries, we talked a bit and she kissed on my upper cheek heavily while she said we will see each other on the dancefloor, she was quite interested it seems. I ignored her after that but I noticed she was looking at me from far away.
I went on the dancefloor then, I was feeling proud and confident, I have been that way for at least 3 weeks now. I noticed some women looks but nothing out of the norm I could pinpoint yet.
Then later as the alcohol flowed more into the girls veins things started to happen. I think the first obvious one was a group of blonde girls,partying hard, a bit drunk but not wasted. I came to dance near them, but not completely close. 10 seconds later one of them grab me me from behind to dance, I dance a bit with them but I expected nothing from them,( a bit too young and too crazy)
Then I moved to another place and one girl caress me on my spine with her finger very sensually, I look back to see who it is, and I see a girl looking at me with a big face saying “I’m trying very hard to seduce you”. I look at her proudly (raised eyebrow) then I ignored her as she wasn’t attractive enough. Later on another part of the dance floor a black cougar was staring at me with the same kind of seducing look. Later when I saw them again she did it again, and her friend too, it was around 3 of them I think looking at me directly. I also noticed some pretty girl being bothered, and turning shy and timid when I was there.
There was a very beautiful blond by most standard, but cold type, when I was looking at her at the beginning of the night I didn’t see her once looking at me but maybe she hid it very well. But while dancing I caught her looking at me from far away, she was surprised and tried to hide it.
Also later while sat and talking with a friend a friend girl came to say hi and talk with me, while all this happened I noticed in my side vision that this cold type girl had an emotional reaction, is this jealousy ???, that’s cute.
There was also 2 nice girl being interested in me but there were with a group of jealous male friend trying to protect them from the “threat” that was me.
There was another pretty girl, she didn’t look at me directly but she was getting near me on purpose, putting her hair on my face, and touching me too much as she passed near me to see another of her jealous male friend. I think she was very interested but her male friends were too jealous for her to show any direct sign.
This was a fun night, I don’t think I ever got this level of direct approach from girls before in a club. There were 2 very obvious one, the group of blond directly dancing with me while I did mostly nothing but just go near them. And this alone girl directly touching me seductively.
It’s only the beginning of stage 2, and it’s already better than SM3 to me, even the latter stage of SM3 didn’t produce that kind of obvious seduction. I feel much better too, there is too much to describe but I can express my emotions more naturally with my body language, face expression, etc.
