12-09-2017, 06:50 AM
Decided to up to 4 loops starting last night. I've been fighting so hard to not slip into old habits which means I'm not giving my brain enough exposure to the sub. I don't like the way 4 loops makes me feel, but it's for the best. I'm sick of living this way, giving too much of a shit what other people think of me, being too afraid to change situations that I'm unhappy with, in general just feeling locked into things and being less flexible with how I live my life. I don't want to accept who I am as a copout for not pushing my comfort zone and facing my fears. Pushing the boundaries of what I deem as my reality is my ultimate goal. Self acceptance is important, but it can get tricky if you use it as a form of complacency or accepting "good enough".
The closer I come to changing this current lifestyle, the more fear I induce. But I have to keep going despite that. I wish there was an easier way, but if there was I don't think I would be having as much trouble as I do in my life.
The closer I come to changing this current lifestyle, the more fear I induce. But I have to keep going despite that. I wish there was an easier way, but if there was I don't think I would be having as much trouble as I do in my life.
INFP
