11-24-2017, 03:24 PM
I need some input on some things.
People around me are acting weird, and it is somewhat bugging me. Just because I am not the outgoing myself all the time, but a bit more closed off (but still very much outgoing compared to many others) doesn't mean they need to act weird around me, right?
My dad is just...weird sometimes. I don't get a hold of it. He is being complaining, and I just don't have the energy to talk to him, he make me irritated, have problem listening, just talking about things that are relevant to him and have a hard time to get another perspective.
My mom is also acting weird, and feels like she is scared of me or "don't know who I am anymore" but I am just my old self.
I can't take up the issues as it just make things weirder, so I just try to get on with my life and make sure that I am OK (which I haven't been for a good while, but now starting to become, so all good emotions I try to work on).
They somewhat live in their own perspective of things. They have decided that "this is how it is" and have problem to see "what is". They can't see how I am improving and feeling better, that things are turning better, but they are so damn entrenched in their own emotions that they miss the whole point of stuff. I just don't know what I should do about it, I feel it's my responsibility. I don't know how to act, who to be, how to be natural at home. F*cking f*cking f*cking sh*t f*ck!!!! The situation pisses me off and I don't know what to do about it. Probably just rest it out and focus on becoming better and that is all that I can do. It can't be my responsibility to make people feel good about everything, they have to come to me and talk to me sometimes. I don't have the energy to go out and fix stuff, especially not when they have decided that I am someone who I am not....
Whatever. Well not whatever. My family have been a great source of joy to me and the situation is just upside down. The family situation is thrown of course, but it doesn't have to be if everyone just TOOK A CHILL PILL and calmed down and didn't get to wound up in their own emotions so damn much. I just can't be around my mom and dad when they talk to each other sometimes.
BLUH
It feels worse than what I can describe in text.
People around me are acting weird, and it is somewhat bugging me. Just because I am not the outgoing myself all the time, but a bit more closed off (but still very much outgoing compared to many others) doesn't mean they need to act weird around me, right?
My dad is just...weird sometimes. I don't get a hold of it. He is being complaining, and I just don't have the energy to talk to him, he make me irritated, have problem listening, just talking about things that are relevant to him and have a hard time to get another perspective.
My mom is also acting weird, and feels like she is scared of me or "don't know who I am anymore" but I am just my old self.
I can't take up the issues as it just make things weirder, so I just try to get on with my life and make sure that I am OK (which I haven't been for a good while, but now starting to become, so all good emotions I try to work on).
They somewhat live in their own perspective of things. They have decided that "this is how it is" and have problem to see "what is". They can't see how I am improving and feeling better, that things are turning better, but they are so damn entrenched in their own emotions that they miss the whole point of stuff. I just don't know what I should do about it, I feel it's my responsibility. I don't know how to act, who to be, how to be natural at home. F*cking f*cking f*cking sh*t f*ck!!!! The situation pisses me off and I don't know what to do about it. Probably just rest it out and focus on becoming better and that is all that I can do. It can't be my responsibility to make people feel good about everything, they have to come to me and talk to me sometimes. I don't have the energy to go out and fix stuff, especially not when they have decided that I am someone who I am not....
Whatever. Well not whatever. My family have been a great source of joy to me and the situation is just upside down. The family situation is thrown of course, but it doesn't have to be if everyone just TOOK A CHILL PILL and calmed down and didn't get to wound up in their own emotions so damn much. I just can't be around my mom and dad when they talk to each other sometimes.
BLUH
It feels worse than what I can describe in text.
