SargeMaximus: Blooming to Alpha

[SargeMaximus]

This belief of "Women only like me, go out with me, etc to be nice" is surfacing. It's a strong one.

Also in sales "people only set apps with me because they like me, not because they actually want what I'm selling"

So, in effect, I'm trying to get women to want me and people to want to buy from me without liking me. It's almost like people liking me isn't a valid reason for them to want to buy or be attracted to me, or them being nice isn't valid.

I think that has really undermined my confidence (and results) this year. I remember back when chaos was around how he'd say the same thing, that women were only "attracted" to me because they felt pity for me and were being nice. Since then, I've tried to be different and, magically, attraction is less. Same with in sales, my one co-worker said people only set apps with me because they liked me, as if it wasn't a valid reason, but perhaps it IS the reason. The only reason that matters.

My mom and grandparents are the same way. So is my cousin. They've always belittled me in the same way.