11-03-2017, 02:40 AM
felt a little tired over the last few days. been going to bed earlier - unsure if it's DMI related as I was on 4 loops for a while before the 'tiredness' set in.
Upped it to 5 loops last night. Had pretty intense and vivid dreams.
One dream that I recall was about my ex business partner - we had travelled the world together and I thought we were pretty close. Long story short he went and started a company behind my back (I thought it was a joint project) and I was emotionally hurt. Felt like a very bad break up. E2 really helped to bring that to the surface and I eventually confronted him and another partner < just the confrontation helped release the bottled up emotions.
Another dream which was more painful was about my last dog that died. He was so healthy and all of a sudden he got sick really quickly and I the vet said we needed to put him down. I said no. But the next morning felt he was in so much pain I called the vet to come to my house and we put him down. Since then I always questioned if I made the right decision based on information I read online and wanted to call the vet to ask them for my peace of mind - but it's so long ago now they probably have no idea.
This woke me up in the middle of the night and it's the first time in a long time I can say I had a 'nightmare' instead of a bad dream.
There were a few others that I can't remember but those were the ones that stuck out. But given they both seem to be the theme of 'pain' and 'hurt' it's possible DMSI is bringing something out of me. I don't know yet.
But I'll keep at 5 loops for another few days to a week and see.
I've noticed when I start a new sub, that first night is always filled with intense vivid dreams - that's what it felt like with this.
So I'll see how it plays out before making a decision to switch to side B or to add another loop to side A
Upped it to 5 loops last night. Had pretty intense and vivid dreams.
One dream that I recall was about my ex business partner - we had travelled the world together and I thought we were pretty close. Long story short he went and started a company behind my back (I thought it was a joint project) and I was emotionally hurt. Felt like a very bad break up. E2 really helped to bring that to the surface and I eventually confronted him and another partner < just the confrontation helped release the bottled up emotions.
Another dream which was more painful was about my last dog that died. He was so healthy and all of a sudden he got sick really quickly and I the vet said we needed to put him down. I said no. But the next morning felt he was in so much pain I called the vet to come to my house and we put him down. Since then I always questioned if I made the right decision based on information I read online and wanted to call the vet to ask them for my peace of mind - but it's so long ago now they probably have no idea.
This woke me up in the middle of the night and it's the first time in a long time I can say I had a 'nightmare' instead of a bad dream.
There were a few others that I can't remember but those were the ones that stuck out. But given they both seem to be the theme of 'pain' and 'hurt' it's possible DMSI is bringing something out of me. I don't know yet.
But I'll keep at 5 loops for another few days to a week and see.
I've noticed when I start a new sub, that first night is always filled with intense vivid dreams - that's what it felt like with this.
So I'll see how it plays out before making a decision to switch to side B or to add another loop to side A
