Day 5
Not very aggressive anymore. Calm and grounded. Auric shielding seems to be working because I am in my own world and what people say just doesn't affect me. Scenarios have been running through my head such as someone at work coming by my cubicle and insulting me based on my age and instead of retorting or destroying them in my head, I thought about calmly laughing and asking them what their name is. Nice discovery. I haven't been getting that pressure between my eyebrows anymore. 2 girls contacted me who I have not spoken to in years. Nothing sexual but still worth noting.
About 5 or so loops per day. Nothing at night anymore. I am getting tired earlier during the day and have been napping longer.
I purchased lots of great healthy food and some good vitamins. Animal Pak workout vitamins, great stuff. Pairing that with Green Superfood capsules, spiralina, broccoli extract, CoQ10, etc. I woke up in a good mood yet exhausted. This is somewhat new because when I'm tired I'm almost always grumpy as a result. I now realize my mood has often been linked to how tired I am and I am often overly critical about my mental state.
Also realizing how critical I am about trying to be correct all the time. What I mean is that I am critical about doing things correctly such as troubleshooting a technical process and I get mad and depressed when I do not know something. I don't give myself enough credit. This is a nice realization - one of those things when you finally are able to see your own bullshit. Very nice.
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Not very aggressive anymore. Calm and grounded. Auric shielding seems to be working because I am in my own world and what people say just doesn't affect me. Scenarios have been running through my head such as someone at work coming by my cubicle and insulting me based on my age and instead of retorting or destroying them in my head, I thought about calmly laughing and asking them what their name is. Nice discovery. I haven't been getting that pressure between my eyebrows anymore. 2 girls contacted me who I have not spoken to in years. Nothing sexual but still worth noting.
About 5 or so loops per day. Nothing at night anymore. I am getting tired earlier during the day and have been napping longer.
I purchased lots of great healthy food and some good vitamins. Animal Pak workout vitamins, great stuff. Pairing that with Green Superfood capsules, spiralina, broccoli extract, CoQ10, etc. I woke up in a good mood yet exhausted. This is somewhat new because when I'm tired I'm almost always grumpy as a result. I now realize my mood has often been linked to how tired I am and I am often overly critical about my mental state.
Also realizing how critical I am about trying to be correct all the time. What I mean is that I am critical about doing things correctly such as troubleshooting a technical process and I get mad and depressed when I do not know something. I don't give myself enough credit. This is a nice realization - one of those things when you finally are able to see your own bullshit. Very nice.
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