(10-20-2017, 02:07 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Why do you want to have sex with female narcissists so much? I'm just curious.
Because to me it would likely bring no end to bs.. I mean theres sometimes enough bs from girls in general.
Are you talking to me, Big Ben? Part of it is simply the urge to dominate, and they usually know how to flaunt their bodies like I said. Maybe it's Seek The Challenge programming coming into effect, thus my desire for beating them at their own game. Despite all that, I know it's a losing sum proposition. I've read and experimented plenty to know I cannot win with a crazy irrational person who is only out to manipulate, or come to a common ground with them, or predict their actions, or gain intimacy, so what am I doing? Unless I completely dominate them, there is no other option here. Conquerer's mindset. Hah.
On another note, it probably goes back to how I was raised and that my mom was a legit sociopath. When she ended up being not fit for custody of me, I was raised by other emotionally distant family members. So, not knowing any better or having any emotionally fulfilling partnerships in my life so far, I'm drawn more to these dysfunctional types. Maybe I'm seeking childhood closure, validation, or something like that.
I don't mind studying it regardless, since it's becoming epidemic in society and really is a deep subject - I could share plenty on it. To be warned, it's like staring too long into the abyss which begins to stare back, because it's easy to lose myself and my higher human qualities when I start to think every other person is devoid of the capacity to love, being more or less out to get me. Yeah, enough dysfunction. I'll take peace and happiness instead.
