My emotions are more stable. I have more control over them. But I am still _emotional_, meaning I live inside my emotions. I'm always in a kind of "turned on" mode, opposite of relaxed. I strive to find a more relaxation in myself, in my present. I feel tension in my belly and in my neck, and I guess these are that stand between me and my recovery.
Things that was very upsetting to me before - people telling me what to do, trying to influence me, are still irritating me but not putting me off balance as much as it did before. It was as if their emotions and opinions overwhelmed me, feeling as I had not power in the situation. So maybe there it is, the lack of personal power that is kind of the problem. Sure it is. I feel weak and with low confidence, which is what is described when the solar plexus chakra is blocked. As it gets unblocked and relaxed, I believe that these issues will fade away and some other way of living take its place.
Anyway I had a pretty enjoyable hang out with some friends today. I felt pretty relaxed, had some jokes, and overall nice atmosphere - something I would never thought was possible just 2-3 months back. I didn't worry all the time, but could be present in the moment, would summarize how it felt.
Things that was very upsetting to me before - people telling me what to do, trying to influence me, are still irritating me but not putting me off balance as much as it did before. It was as if their emotions and opinions overwhelmed me, feeling as I had not power in the situation. So maybe there it is, the lack of personal power that is kind of the problem. Sure it is. I feel weak and with low confidence, which is what is described when the solar plexus chakra is blocked. As it gets unblocked and relaxed, I believe that these issues will fade away and some other way of living take its place.
Anyway I had a pretty enjoyable hang out with some friends today. I felt pretty relaxed, had some jokes, and overall nice atmosphere - something I would never thought was possible just 2-3 months back. I didn't worry all the time, but could be present in the moment, would summarize how it felt.
