10-12-2017, 05:56 PM
Funny how as I grow I shed layers of protection. I'm no badass. All the posturing, the idgafs, the anger. It was all protection to prevent me from being hurt. The problem with that attitude is I walked around expecting bad behavior from people so much I became blind to the good. I'm at a point where I want to spread love, not more anger. And if people want to take advantage of me I know how to put my foot down. And it doesn't involve taking on more negative judgement or toxic emotions. It just means detaching myself from the situation and resolving it without giving into less developed emotional reactions.
That being said, I'm still really anxious around people and it makes me appear aloof. I'm not trying to be aloof. It's easy to walk around with anger and fake dominance to hide the fear of rejection. It's s lot harder being open and honest with people and not hiding behind anything. what I'm coming to realize is that I still very much fear rejection so I still wear a mask. I need to clear this stuff out
That being said, I'm still really anxious around people and it makes me appear aloof. I'm not trying to be aloof. It's easy to walk around with anger and fake dominance to hide the fear of rejection. It's s lot harder being open and honest with people and not hiding behind anything. what I'm coming to realize is that I still very much fear rejection so I still wear a mask. I need to clear this stuff out
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