I'm highly sensitive, sure. If anything, it's caused me to have Avoidant Personality Disorder.
"Those affected display a pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy and inferiority, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction despite a strong desire to be close to others."
When in public I feel way too inhibited and am scrutinizing but at the same time screaming out. I've sort of shut my self-expression and empathetic nature down for the most part (AM6 may have given me too much self-control). I'm aware that most of the population is unable to reciprocate or relate and operating more or less on pure animal drives, so I tend to generalize with "fuck 'em, whatever".
That's caused a disconnect between me and socializing. I don't even socialize irl anymore and am on the path to becoming a hermit. When I run to the store, the overwhelming stimulus is negative since everyone seems so sick, ugly, and unconscious. Why would I want to subject myself to that continually? It's draining. My intuition peaked on WM2 and I became shell-shocked at how messed up the world is. Mostly, I interact and philosophize with other HSP's online but that's not that fulfilling especially in a physical sense.
Maybe I could find fulfillment in giving more to others, being more service-to-others rather than service-to-self, but I haven't made that transition yet.
One of my goals is to get into an advanced meditation program, but that will only increase my ESP more, so it's good that I've been forming my worldview to be ready for such.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
-Marianne Williamson
"Those affected display a pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy and inferiority, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction despite a strong desire to be close to others."
When in public I feel way too inhibited and am scrutinizing but at the same time screaming out. I've sort of shut my self-expression and empathetic nature down for the most part (AM6 may have given me too much self-control). I'm aware that most of the population is unable to reciprocate or relate and operating more or less on pure animal drives, so I tend to generalize with "fuck 'em, whatever".
That's caused a disconnect between me and socializing. I don't even socialize irl anymore and am on the path to becoming a hermit. When I run to the store, the overwhelming stimulus is negative since everyone seems so sick, ugly, and unconscious. Why would I want to subject myself to that continually? It's draining. My intuition peaked on WM2 and I became shell-shocked at how messed up the world is. Mostly, I interact and philosophize with other HSP's online but that's not that fulfilling especially in a physical sense.
Maybe I could find fulfillment in giving more to others, being more service-to-others rather than service-to-self, but I haven't made that transition yet.
One of my goals is to get into an advanced meditation program, but that will only increase my ESP more, so it's good that I've been forming my worldview to be ready for such.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
-Marianne Williamson
