10-08-2017, 12:24 PM
Had a good night at the birthday party, where I most of the time enjoyed it. I wasn't 100 % as usual, but patience is key they say, anyway I'm just glad I could enjoy it.
I have been musical and liked music before, and I am starting to be able to do it again. To dance with the rytm of the music and feel the music in my body, was great to feel that kind of sensation again, as I have been worrying that it was lost.
I wasn't very drunk, just enough during the night. At the end of the evening I stood beside the dancefloor with people all around me, and just enjoyed listening to the music and being present, which felt great. I felt calm, and at peace and at the same time present, not being conscious of myself in the crowd. I am looking forward to enjoy more of this "state" as I feel that it is what awaiting on the other, healthy side.
Emotionally I am still a bit upset, which make it hard to talk to people who are emotional, and guess who these often are - well girls. As I am growing more calm in myself and releasing store up tension, so is my emotions and my emotional state much more calm and therefore I am not drawn into them as before, more being able to be "myself", in a more harmonious way.
I starting to be able to take deep breaths where I see my chest is moving out, which I believe is a result of having let go of tensions in this area which is correlated to upset emotions.
thums up - New week starting tomorrow!
I have been musical and liked music before, and I am starting to be able to do it again. To dance with the rytm of the music and feel the music in my body, was great to feel that kind of sensation again, as I have been worrying that it was lost.
I wasn't very drunk, just enough during the night. At the end of the evening I stood beside the dancefloor with people all around me, and just enjoyed listening to the music and being present, which felt great. I felt calm, and at peace and at the same time present, not being conscious of myself in the crowd. I am looking forward to enjoy more of this "state" as I feel that it is what awaiting on the other, healthy side.
Emotionally I am still a bit upset, which make it hard to talk to people who are emotional, and guess who these often are - well girls. As I am growing more calm in myself and releasing store up tension, so is my emotions and my emotional state much more calm and therefore I am not drawn into them as before, more being able to be "myself", in a more harmonious way.
I starting to be able to take deep breaths where I see my chest is moving out, which I believe is a result of having let go of tensions in this area which is correlated to upset emotions.
thums up - New week starting tomorrow!
