I'm not journaling anymore because I don't want to be called for every small stuff but I'm going to report back my second run of DMSI. This may help someone, who knows.
-There is no sign of resistance. Or at least, this isn't visible. During my run #1 I was tired all the time, procrastinating, and depressed. But now I don't have any of that. I don't know what changed that. Maybe the break I took helped. APE is a wonderful sub that I'd love to run for a year.
-The manifestation is what is working best I think. Girls text me out of blues. Girls I haven't talked in months. Some behave weirdly, texting me "just to say hi" (what they say) and not wanting to have a proper conversation. Like that girl texting me out of the blue "Good night", and disappearing when I try to have a meaningful conversation. And I wasn't even thinking of sex. I just tried to have fun there.
-Girls look at me a lot. It's like they see me from afar. It happens in the street most of the time.
What's surprising is that it's like they see me from afar, even before I can see them.
One day I was in a café and a girl seated before me was looking at me intermittently. That was becoming discomforting because I didn't know how to act.
-It seems to me that the autopilot is still working with that girl I talked just before...The talk is always great with her and I say things that I can't pull out with others. It's a pretty strange but scary feeling.
Maybe it's not the autopilot and I just connect well with that girl, but l'm not forgetting how she texted me a few days after I started run #2, how great the talk was and how she basically confessed her interest in me right away. But with the time she became very sticky.
-I'm a bit disappointed about the internal changes. I chose DMSI A mostly for goal #2. But I don't really think I changed. Now, obviously I have only run DMSI for not even 2 months in total so I can't blame it.
What I can say thought, is that DMSI makes me high when I listen to it, but it's like just an illusion. I feel fucking great, listening to it alone at home, but when I step out I feel like a miserable insect.
Obviously if I run it for many more months I may get consistent results.
But for a 5.5G sub in two months I was expecting at least some visible results about my self-esteem, self-confidence, self-love and so on. OP wich is a 4G sub was giving me full results after only 3 days. I couldn't listen to OP while doing nohting or slacking off. I had the urge to open my docs and work on something. The results can't be mistaken.
-Libido still too low. Don't give a fuck about girls. Don't have the motivation to try to get them. I'm not horny. I'm just trying to have platonic relationships now.
-I stopped my run #2 exactly at the 32 days mark for the following reasons. Firstly I want to observe and contemplate how much I changed. So I'm trying to be really mindful of myself right now. Secondly and lastly, because of DMSI 3.2.
I'll take a break from all subs until then. But if I find a better sub for self-empowering until then I'll stick with it.
-There is no sign of resistance. Or at least, this isn't visible. During my run #1 I was tired all the time, procrastinating, and depressed. But now I don't have any of that. I don't know what changed that. Maybe the break I took helped. APE is a wonderful sub that I'd love to run for a year.
-The manifestation is what is working best I think. Girls text me out of blues. Girls I haven't talked in months. Some behave weirdly, texting me "just to say hi" (what they say) and not wanting to have a proper conversation. Like that girl texting me out of the blue "Good night", and disappearing when I try to have a meaningful conversation. And I wasn't even thinking of sex. I just tried to have fun there.
-Girls look at me a lot. It's like they see me from afar. It happens in the street most of the time.
What's surprising is that it's like they see me from afar, even before I can see them.
One day I was in a café and a girl seated before me was looking at me intermittently. That was becoming discomforting because I didn't know how to act.
-It seems to me that the autopilot is still working with that girl I talked just before...The talk is always great with her and I say things that I can't pull out with others. It's a pretty strange but scary feeling.
Maybe it's not the autopilot and I just connect well with that girl, but l'm not forgetting how she texted me a few days after I started run #2, how great the talk was and how she basically confessed her interest in me right away. But with the time she became very sticky.
-I'm a bit disappointed about the internal changes. I chose DMSI A mostly for goal #2. But I don't really think I changed. Now, obviously I have only run DMSI for not even 2 months in total so I can't blame it.
What I can say thought, is that DMSI makes me high when I listen to it, but it's like just an illusion. I feel fucking great, listening to it alone at home, but when I step out I feel like a miserable insect.
Obviously if I run it for many more months I may get consistent results.
But for a 5.5G sub in two months I was expecting at least some visible results about my self-esteem, self-confidence, self-love and so on. OP wich is a 4G sub was giving me full results after only 3 days. I couldn't listen to OP while doing nohting or slacking off. I had the urge to open my docs and work on something. The results can't be mistaken.
-Libido still too low. Don't give a fuck about girls. Don't have the motivation to try to get them. I'm not horny. I'm just trying to have platonic relationships now.
-I stopped my run #2 exactly at the 32 days mark for the following reasons. Firstly I want to observe and contemplate how much I changed. So I'm trying to be really mindful of myself right now. Secondly and lastly, because of DMSI 3.2.
I'll take a break from all subs until then. But if I find a better sub for self-empowering until then I'll stick with it.
