In this for the healing DMSI v3.1 A

[mat422]

I took a week long break, and it felt good. I just started listening last night. Try a week first or two for your break. IMO. Up to you though.

I'll give a week or two a shot. Just the more I've run DMSI the more I don't like the seduction stuff in it. It's pushing me to focus on things I don't really want to focus on right now and that's probably where most of the resistance is coming from. I've got two different goals in my head right now.

What are the two goals that you have? Girls and music?

Yeah maybe it's just me running from DMSI but whatever. Girls was never my primary focus. I don't like how much mental energy I've been wasting when it could be put to better use somewhere else.

Also as a side note, I've been off dmsi two days now and it's miserable. Anxiety at ridiculous levels and I have this dull headache that won't go away. I thought things would mellow out a bit once I stopped, but it seems like it's effecting me more and not in a good way. Feels like I'm having mini panic attacks throughout the day. My body is all tense and I can't focus.

Driving home yesterday was incredibly difficult. And once I got home I was planning to just lie down for a couple of minutes to calm down. But I was so tired/anxious I went to bed at 6 and slept straight through till the morning. Feels like my body is in this fight or flight mode all the time now and I can't calm myself. People are making me more anxious than usual and any perceived inflection of aggression or hostility in their tone sends me into this tense afraid feeling. Feels like I have PTSD or something, not good