02-03-2012, 12:40 PM
(02-02-2012, 06:23 AM)Ryan Wrote: Oh man I know what you mean. When I wake up I usually have weird negative thoughts on my mind and then new ones pop-up throughout the day. It's odd. And I feel that black cloud too. It's not making me depressed but it makes me wonder "why am I in this weird mood and what is happening?"
Ryan
So I'm not the only one. Yeah it's weird just waking up in the morning with these thoughts that just feel like they were dumped on you. If my day goes good I'm usually fine, but if I screw up a little or something bad happens my whole day tends to spiral down.
Spiral Wrote:Hey Mat, if it makes you feel any better the disconnect from negativity sub might just be what the doctor ordered. I can't wait to start it but I do understand that parts of the resistance could be rougher than anything else I've done such as SM and AM just because it's disconnect from negativity so I would expect alot of negative stuff coming up for another month. But you are taking care of it sooner than later and that's why I can't wait to get started on it. another 10 days then I'll use it for 2 months straight. Just quarantine the brain of that negative crap. I wish you the best in finding a job man and don't rush yourself or get too stressed out. And if you have to, take lots of naps. I slept all day last Sunday... but only do that if you are ok with it of course and if you have time to sleep away.
Man I can't remember the last time I took a nap, I've been getting enough sleep every night so I'm hardly ever tired anymore. Usually when I get really stressed out I'll need to take a quick nap or just crash on the couch. The disconnect from negativity within sub is a real tough one, for me at least. But it definitely pulls up a lot of stuff.
Speaking of negativity. A couple nights ago I had an intense nightmare. It was very demonic, very dark, and just twisted. It was basically me and some other people in a house with just a lot of demonic presence. I remember being terrified, but other people weren't. So I think that relates to my social anxiety, I have all this fear that most people don't even think twice about and I think it causes me to become very negative with myself. Anyway as the dream progresses I stand up for myself by locking myself in a room that is pitch black with screaming and just terrifying noises. It doesn't stay a room though, it kind of turns into a portal into another dimension. So after that demonic things just attack me and fill me with the most amount of fear I have ever felt in my life. It was pretty much paralyzing and I didn't really conquer anything in that dream.
So this disconnect from negativity sub brings up a lot of dark stuff. I recall a similar dream with evil presence on my first run through of this sub as well. I can't wait for the 4G version though. Even though I may get dreams even darker than this one haha.
