09-27-2017, 09:29 AM
I noticed that my sexual confidence has been growing lately. The recent breakup has really messed me up considering it involved another person in the picture. Recently I have noticed that suddenly out of the blue, I tell my self I'm such a sexymofo and that a lot of women desire me. Those are some of the ideas that popped into my head when I woke up. I have again begun to look at myself in the mirror. And the difference is that I now like more of what I'm seeing. Some of the old programming tried creeping in but somehow I am able to counter it with the thought "If there is something that I don't like of what I'm seeing, then I have to accept it and love it because primarily nobody else is going to love the ugly parts of me". I used to have a distorted sense of handsomeness before. But for the first time in my life, I saw myself as myself. Staring at myself in the mirror, imperfections and all, and finally loving every little bit of me.
On other news, I have been more dominant in more situations at work as well as have become more of a peacemaker. I again found the value of slowing things down and using third-person thinking when it comes to approaching stressful situations. Although I cannot say I am 100% like that right now, because I am sometimes caught off-guard. I feel I too have become more mature lately. I regressed to being a boy because of that recent breakup. But now all seem a lot clearer to me. No tantrums or whatsoever. However there is a part of me that is still in a hurry to grow up. As if that hunger for growth is insatiable. Sometimes thoughts of combining another sub creep in. But somehow I can manage myself and bring me back to my senses. I just remind myself that "Alpha Male has already the complete mix for everything that a man needs. No additional sub will be needed." After reminding myself with those words, the resistance disappears.
On other news, I have been more dominant in more situations at work as well as have become more of a peacemaker. I again found the value of slowing things down and using third-person thinking when it comes to approaching stressful situations. Although I cannot say I am 100% like that right now, because I am sometimes caught off-guard. I feel I too have become more mature lately. I regressed to being a boy because of that recent breakup. But now all seem a lot clearer to me. No tantrums or whatsoever. However there is a part of me that is still in a hurry to grow up. As if that hunger for growth is insatiable. Sometimes thoughts of combining another sub creep in. But somehow I can manage myself and bring me back to my senses. I just remind myself that "Alpha Male has already the complete mix for everything that a man needs. No additional sub will be needed." After reminding myself with those words, the resistance disappears.
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