09-26-2017, 03:36 PM
Day 54
This is likely the most brutal h/c ive ever had on a sub.
Next week I should be about 50% done with h/c, but the revelations of the past week have just been ball twisting. Like holy f*ck…this shit is crazy lol
Everything to my situation has several layers.
It was very confusing and I had a lot of people working against me to bring me pain, which I’m guessing is part of the h/c in some way. But it just sucks that it might last a full 3 solid months.
On a positive note, I have been very upbeat and strong throughout this entire process.
Yes, I had some low moments, but it’s something like 80/20 - most of the time, like 80% of the time, I’ve been resilient, and maybe 10 – 20% the full weight and negativity of everything just hits me. But I’m always able to pull myself back together, which is nice.
I can now see even more glimmers of the mega mind popping in, and it’s very subtle.
Just in random conversations with friends, when I’m helping them with problems I’ll come up with some random creative angle and they’ll pause and exclaim something like “Jeezus…you’re a fuckin genius!”
At first that caught me off guard because I didn’t give much thought to what I said, but then I realized how deep and complex the idea I just presented was. Even my own ideas catch me off guard sometimes! Lol But that also means my problem solving has enhance by some significant amount.
Even in my current shit situation with so much against me, I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My intuition boosted along with my logical mind, and I can easily detect what is and is not possible with certain ideas, which is kind of crazy by itself.
But MLS takes the cake in terms of clearing me out and pushing me to the next level. Like holy balls to the wall, this has been intense.
I still predict I will have assimilated and expressed 50% of the sub effects by next week (meaning that h/c is 50% done). If that happens, first week of Nov should be the blossoming period. Then thereafter the mega mind.
I can’t f*cking wait for that lol
This is likely the most brutal h/c ive ever had on a sub.
Next week I should be about 50% done with h/c, but the revelations of the past week have just been ball twisting. Like holy f*ck…this shit is crazy lol
Everything to my situation has several layers.
It was very confusing and I had a lot of people working against me to bring me pain, which I’m guessing is part of the h/c in some way. But it just sucks that it might last a full 3 solid months.
On a positive note, I have been very upbeat and strong throughout this entire process.
Yes, I had some low moments, but it’s something like 80/20 - most of the time, like 80% of the time, I’ve been resilient, and maybe 10 – 20% the full weight and negativity of everything just hits me. But I’m always able to pull myself back together, which is nice.
I can now see even more glimmers of the mega mind popping in, and it’s very subtle.
Just in random conversations with friends, when I’m helping them with problems I’ll come up with some random creative angle and they’ll pause and exclaim something like “Jeezus…you’re a fuckin genius!”
At first that caught me off guard because I didn’t give much thought to what I said, but then I realized how deep and complex the idea I just presented was. Even my own ideas catch me off guard sometimes! Lol But that also means my problem solving has enhance by some significant amount.
Even in my current shit situation with so much against me, I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My intuition boosted along with my logical mind, and I can easily detect what is and is not possible with certain ideas, which is kind of crazy by itself.
But MLS takes the cake in terms of clearing me out and pushing me to the next level. Like holy balls to the wall, this has been intense.
I still predict I will have assimilated and expressed 50% of the sub effects by next week (meaning that h/c is 50% done). If that happens, first week of Nov should be the blossoming period. Then thereafter the mega mind.
I can’t f*cking wait for that lol
