09-21-2017, 04:45 PM
Thanks guys, you're definitely helping me solidify this state of mind. It's still really foreign to me, but I'm slowly getting used to it.
Feels like lately DMSI is really unlocking my sexual nature. It's gotten to the point where there are some girls I work with that just get me turned on and I feel the sexual energy start coursing through my body. Today at work I was doing some things on the computer and this girl comes in to talk to my coworker. I started heating up a bit and I just l let it go and didn't fight the feeling. Don't know if it's DMSI or the fact that I haven't jerked off in weeks, but I'm just insanely horny around girls now. Anyway I look up from my computer and she's leaning over the desk talking to my coworker, but her butt is in full display in front of me. Like pointed directly at me.
This goes back to what RTBoss mentioned in a post and I don't really rate women, I feel it's a bit dehumanizing. But there's something about some women that just makes them sexy, their energy. Being able to see beyond looks is kinda nice actually. I think a lot of my high standards was just a reflection of my own insecurities. That and repressed sexuality. Maybe I was attracted to a lot of women in my past, but I bottled it up and never realized it.
Feels like lately DMSI is really unlocking my sexual nature. It's gotten to the point where there are some girls I work with that just get me turned on and I feel the sexual energy start coursing through my body. Today at work I was doing some things on the computer and this girl comes in to talk to my coworker. I started heating up a bit and I just l let it go and didn't fight the feeling. Don't know if it's DMSI or the fact that I haven't jerked off in weeks, but I'm just insanely horny around girls now. Anyway I look up from my computer and she's leaning over the desk talking to my coworker, but her butt is in full display in front of me. Like pointed directly at me.
This goes back to what RTBoss mentioned in a post and I don't really rate women, I feel it's a bit dehumanizing. But there's something about some women that just makes them sexy, their energy. Being able to see beyond looks is kinda nice actually. I think a lot of my high standards was just a reflection of my own insecurities. That and repressed sexuality. Maybe I was attracted to a lot of women in my past, but I bottled it up and never realized it.
INFP
