09-19-2017, 01:18 AM
Anxiety is replaced with fear, dystopian visions and a sense that I am becoming a wimp.
I am sliding back to a former version of myself that lacks an outspoken backbone. Sure, I am mentally clear-headed, but what is the point if I don't grab life by the horns and force it to bend to how I want it to be? It surely won't change like magic if I don't change it.
Additionally, my presence is gone. It is as if I am a child in a room full of grown-ups and hence I don't get any shred of the respect I show them just because they are fellow human beings.
Not really noticing any significant change from running MLS doesn't help the situation. Although my IQ supposedly went up, there is nothing substantial that proves it to me in my day to day life.
I am sliding back to a former version of myself that lacks an outspoken backbone. Sure, I am mentally clear-headed, but what is the point if I don't grab life by the horns and force it to bend to how I want it to be? It surely won't change like magic if I don't change it.
Additionally, my presence is gone. It is as if I am a child in a room full of grown-ups and hence I don't get any shred of the respect I show them just because they are fellow human beings.
Not really noticing any significant change from running MLS doesn't help the situation. Although my IQ supposedly went up, there is nothing substantial that proves it to me in my day to day life.
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