09-17-2017, 01:34 PM
(09-17-2017, 05:28 AM)Kol Wrote: been there aswell, going dark 0n facebook and not wanting to do anything. eventually it swung over, like, from an "need"to an "wanting impulse to go to" guess DMSI is helping you evolve in re-engaging evantually from an more "healthier"(?) standpoint.
Sounds about right. It just gets crazy confusing at times.
Forgot to mention I went to a bonfire the other night and there was this girl there who I sort of knew. I went to middle school with her and I'd seen her a few other times when we had these bonfires last summer I think. Anyway I used to have a crush on this girl. Without dragging this out, it's rather uneventful. She went swimming in the lake in her underwear with a few other people. I just stayed back and tended to the fire. She tells me not to be alarmed because she's coming over in her underwear and I'm like that's cool. Keeps asking me if it's ok and if I'm uncomfortable. I'm like no really it's fine. Then she asks about what I've been up to, how's life going sort of questions. Also noticed when she sat she would either have a foot pointing at me or have her torso facing me. But nothing happened because even as I write this now I'm still hesitant to assume there was any attraction there or interest. The fact that she thought I'd be uncomfortable with a half naked incredibly attractive women was weird. The only thing I can think of is I'm giving off some heavily incongruent vibes.
This is what DMSI needs to hit the most for me. Not just getting women to show interest, but me getting more aligned that the interest they direct towards me is legit. I'm like 90% certain right now I'm noticing the signals and see the attraction from some women, but due to fear or something else I find ways to write them off as coincidence or imagination. So it's not being oblivious or blind to this stuff. I fucking suck at this.
INFP
