09-13-2017, 04:25 PM
Gotta drop down to 2 loops from now on. Work performance is suffering, memory is shot, I'm excessively tired, and I keep making mistakes with a lot of stuff. I'm only averaging about 8 hours of sleep a night. Can't go to sleep any earlier otherwise I don't have time to work on my music and continue to improve in things I want to. 4 loops may be the most effective for me, but it doesn't leave me too functional so that's out.
Trying to make the best out of what I've got right now in my life. Everything feels like it's coming together more, but at the same time I feel more locked in and stuck than before. Motivation has taken a nose dive, I get home from work and I have to force myself to make music otherwise I just sit my ass in front of the tv and watch something. I'm grinding it out pretty much. Music is fun, don't get me wrong but a lot of times it's like a second job and I do have to work at it and dedicate a lot of mental resources to it. Sometimes I wonder if that's even possible while holding down a full time job. I don't have many friends with the same dedication, they just work, play video games, and chill. They don't get it, a lot of people don't get me. I'd rather chill at my place and perfect my craft than piss away a weekend night getting plastered at a club or bar. No offense to anyone that likes doing that, but it's just not me.
Trying to make the best out of what I've got right now in my life. Everything feels like it's coming together more, but at the same time I feel more locked in and stuck than before. Motivation has taken a nose dive, I get home from work and I have to force myself to make music otherwise I just sit my ass in front of the tv and watch something. I'm grinding it out pretty much. Music is fun, don't get me wrong but a lot of times it's like a second job and I do have to work at it and dedicate a lot of mental resources to it. Sometimes I wonder if that's even possible while holding down a full time job. I don't have many friends with the same dedication, they just work, play video games, and chill. They don't get it, a lot of people don't get me. I'd rather chill at my place and perfect my craft than piss away a weekend night getting plastered at a club or bar. No offense to anyone that likes doing that, but it's just not me.
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