09-10-2017, 12:50 PM
In the future it wont take months and months I guarantee you....maybe 6 weeks maybe two months max.... too much is happening on the planet in light of evolevment,quantum jumping,state shifting, and other forms of shifting & altering and playing with reality.. I Know that's NOT here ( but its coming)nor there when you're in the middle of the 'stuff' heavysm but this to shall pass...and heal,ect.
(09-10-2017, 11:47 AM)heavysm Wrote: Day 38
The h/c is still going on, but very passively in the background.
During the first 32 days it felt like a lot was being shuffled around, but now it feels very quiet. This whole month has been relatively quiet with sudden moments of clearing insights sprinkled throughout.
I had a massive dream about my ex which surprised me. I have to get over her in very deep ways, and I’m actually not sure how to do that. This is about stuff that doesn’t consciously affect me, but I found still lingers in the deep subconscious. If I really consider certain things she did to me, I’m not completely over it – maybe like 95%, which is functional and felt like good enough.
Also, I found that I have a mountain of self-doubt to get past. This wasn’t realized until mid-August, but now I have to put all efforts into eradicating that, because it’s greatly holding me back.
But this doubt theme appears to be what MLS is currently battling. I doubt my abilities to learn quickly, my success, and lots of other things residual from my past. That’s a lot of doubt lol and I need to get past it.
Generally, I am far more motivated to sit and learn. That means reading and practicing my new languages for at least an hour a day (for each, not altogether). My body and brain also has a very noticeable calmness to it that started on day 32. This is how I felt in the past when I was “tuned” in to learning most effectively.
Right now I’m just waiting for the bigger shifts to come. Even if it takes a bit more time into October, that’s fine. I just want the blossoming period to come so that this h/c shit can be over. At times it’s depressing because so much of the past is thrown up into my face.
But I know the process is crucial to forward progress. I just wish it didn’t take months and months.
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