08-31-2017, 05:22 PM
Day 42
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=monN9Ok0El8
When I was on DMSI, I was on a serious Marilyn Manson Kick. On MLS, I'm on a serious Quarashi kick.
Quarashi was one of those bands for me when I was younger, I remember I blasted their album while my buddy drove around the streets of Seoul 13 years ago. I don't even remember who I was back then. That's how much I've changed in the more than a decade that has past.
MLS is deep in a healing curve right now. I have dreams that I can't recall anymore, but, I just remember the intensity of them and how I felt. I was rooting into some of the core points of myself. I've been exhausted most of this week, burdened with the new title and responsibility. I'm disconnecting starting tomorrow night. Going to sit in front of the computer most of Saturday and watch Narcos Season 3 on NetFlix. Not exactly the playboy lifestyle, but, September's are typically a quiet month for me.
Both my mother and grandmother passed in September.
An old girlfriend of mine once told me that when I got older, I would probably appreciate September, because it's the month that I grew the most. She was right. With every passing September month, I tend to change the most.
MLS is easily becoming something that I can stay on for a long time. I've really no desire to move onto a new DMSI release. Once DMSI does come out, I may change my mind, but, I want to give MLS a fair shot. I was on DMSI for about 11 months. It was amazing. But MLS, MLS is just much more light hearted, easy going. It's been 42 days and it doesn't even feel like it.
The success factors of things around me are pretty incredible as well. Whether it's the startups or even just the new position I took on. Things just seem to work some how.
It's been 8 days since I started watching my Mind Movie while on MLS. There is nothing obvious reflected from that, and yet, I feel like there will be - it just needs time. And I'm not in a rush. I'm not in a rush to see things happen immediately. Maybe it's just my age catching up to me, but I kind of like the Slow and Steady wins the race, approach to living right now.
I'm coming to realize that everything, all of it, is just a state of mind. It's how you manage yourself and your life. Finding an optimal kind of a flow.
On some days, I'm really on it and I'm just consuming information by the bucketload. On other days, I'm in a slower pace and just want to close my eyes and day dream. I allow myself to be both. Because both states eventually pass. I can't always be on, and I can't always be off.
This lack of expectations has made things infinitely more simple for me. It's also done wonders for my mood. I generally feel positive all of the time. Things don't bother me as much.
In many ways, this may end up being the calm, before the proverbial storm. There are some bigger moves awaiting me.
But for now, they can wait. When I'm ready, I'll march out there and slay my own dragons...
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=monN9Ok0El8
When I was on DMSI, I was on a serious Marilyn Manson Kick. On MLS, I'm on a serious Quarashi kick.
Quarashi was one of those bands for me when I was younger, I remember I blasted their album while my buddy drove around the streets of Seoul 13 years ago. I don't even remember who I was back then. That's how much I've changed in the more than a decade that has past.
MLS is deep in a healing curve right now. I have dreams that I can't recall anymore, but, I just remember the intensity of them and how I felt. I was rooting into some of the core points of myself. I've been exhausted most of this week, burdened with the new title and responsibility. I'm disconnecting starting tomorrow night. Going to sit in front of the computer most of Saturday and watch Narcos Season 3 on NetFlix. Not exactly the playboy lifestyle, but, September's are typically a quiet month for me.
Both my mother and grandmother passed in September.
An old girlfriend of mine once told me that when I got older, I would probably appreciate September, because it's the month that I grew the most. She was right. With every passing September month, I tend to change the most.
MLS is easily becoming something that I can stay on for a long time. I've really no desire to move onto a new DMSI release. Once DMSI does come out, I may change my mind, but, I want to give MLS a fair shot. I was on DMSI for about 11 months. It was amazing. But MLS, MLS is just much more light hearted, easy going. It's been 42 days and it doesn't even feel like it.
The success factors of things around me are pretty incredible as well. Whether it's the startups or even just the new position I took on. Things just seem to work some how.
It's been 8 days since I started watching my Mind Movie while on MLS. There is nothing obvious reflected from that, and yet, I feel like there will be - it just needs time. And I'm not in a rush. I'm not in a rush to see things happen immediately. Maybe it's just my age catching up to me, but I kind of like the Slow and Steady wins the race, approach to living right now.
I'm coming to realize that everything, all of it, is just a state of mind. It's how you manage yourself and your life. Finding an optimal kind of a flow.
On some days, I'm really on it and I'm just consuming information by the bucketload. On other days, I'm in a slower pace and just want to close my eyes and day dream. I allow myself to be both. Because both states eventually pass. I can't always be on, and I can't always be off.
This lack of expectations has made things infinitely more simple for me. It's also done wonders for my mood. I generally feel positive all of the time. Things don't bother me as much.
In many ways, this may end up being the calm, before the proverbial storm. There are some bigger moves awaiting me.
But for now, they can wait. When I'm ready, I'll march out there and slay my own dragons...
