08-31-2017, 08:52 AM
Day 36
Wow, I'm really getting a lit out of this Inner bonding book now. Props to Ben for posting on it for so long and thus reminding me. I feel like I'm finally starting to understand what self-respect really is, and how one can increase his sense of self worth - and its not there in the first place. I did not really think too much of this inner parent/child (rational vs emotional processes), but in practice it's like I didn't even see myself before, so of I couldn't really take myself into consideration, so I essentially ignored myself, thus setting the message that I am not important. Then when I intentionally set out to respect myself, I was looking at things from a value perspective and hardening myself so that I could become more high value, which would mean that I want things for myself, which I took to then mean I demanded respect. But I think that's misleading and just the wrong way to go about it, since self respect means respecting yourself, and to respect yourself you have to be very aware of the self as it is without the protections. And not assume that this is self is the rationally constructed self, meaning the you you think you need and want to be so that you are high value and important. I feel I can also feel much more safe if I can think that its the job of the parent to protect me. Because its feel relatively quite easy to face fear with rational processes, while allowing the emotional side to not become as hardened. Cool stuff.
Wow, I'm really getting a lit out of this Inner bonding book now. Props to Ben for posting on it for so long and thus reminding me. I feel like I'm finally starting to understand what self-respect really is, and how one can increase his sense of self worth - and its not there in the first place. I did not really think too much of this inner parent/child (rational vs emotional processes), but in practice it's like I didn't even see myself before, so of I couldn't really take myself into consideration, so I essentially ignored myself, thus setting the message that I am not important. Then when I intentionally set out to respect myself, I was looking at things from a value perspective and hardening myself so that I could become more high value, which would mean that I want things for myself, which I took to then mean I demanded respect. But I think that's misleading and just the wrong way to go about it, since self respect means respecting yourself, and to respect yourself you have to be very aware of the self as it is without the protections. And not assume that this is self is the rationally constructed self, meaning the you you think you need and want to be so that you are high value and important. I feel I can also feel much more safe if I can think that its the job of the parent to protect me. Because its feel relatively quite easy to face fear with rational processes, while allowing the emotional side to not become as hardened. Cool stuff.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
