08-24-2017, 09:52 AM
My "real" perspective is coming back (i start to feel familiar with how I perceive things around me) and the mist of confusion I have found myself in is starting to clear. What I find is both, a perspective on who other people are, but I'm also starting to remember who I am, and not only the person that others want me to be. I understand who are safe, and who may not have my best interests at heart, which will be crucial for my continued recovery.
One person that can be really damaging is my mother. I have written about it before, but I now can see it clearer. At this time I live at home with her and my dad because of my financial situation which is limited due to not being able to work at the time, so changing the situation is challenging, why I instead have been forced to learn to change how I respond to the situation.
However, my mother... When she don't get as she want, talk about what she want, people don't act as she want, she get upset, angry and create a lot of drama. Everything about her is drama. My dad is a pretty simple guy with a good sense of humor, so at times we have a good time.
Hm. My thoughts was clearer when I though about writing this post, well maybe I'll come back to it later.
Sometimes it just feel like my parents are so wound up into stuff, often the drama my mom carries with her, that they can't see me and see how bad I am feeling, and how damaged I am at the moment. They are just irritated that I'm not happy and outgoing as I used to be, and that just work as icing on the shit-cake that I am trying to get away from.
One person that can be really damaging is my mother. I have written about it before, but I now can see it clearer. At this time I live at home with her and my dad because of my financial situation which is limited due to not being able to work at the time, so changing the situation is challenging, why I instead have been forced to learn to change how I respond to the situation.
However, my mother... When she don't get as she want, talk about what she want, people don't act as she want, she get upset, angry and create a lot of drama. Everything about her is drama. My dad is a pretty simple guy with a good sense of humor, so at times we have a good time.
Hm. My thoughts was clearer when I though about writing this post, well maybe I'll come back to it later.
Sometimes it just feel like my parents are so wound up into stuff, often the drama my mom carries with her, that they can't see me and see how bad I am feeling, and how damaged I am at the moment. They are just irritated that I'm not happy and outgoing as I used to be, and that just work as icing on the shit-cake that I am trying to get away from.
