08-21-2017, 12:15 AM
Day 32
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Feeling happier today, could be because of getting more rest over the weekend. More social and cheerful with coworkers this morning.
I did have two beers on Saturday but didn't go too overboard. Had ED on Sunday morning though. It made me really really angry, had to leave the house and be on my own for about 45 minutes to cool off. It frustrated me because I was hoping due to the detox this would be a problem of the past, but it seems like drinking is a no no for me. It's really frustrating when two beers throw me off and other people can drink plenty and still have sex that night.
My diet has taken a huge turn due to the sub. Previously my diet would consist of chicken burgers for lunch and pasta with chicken/porn and a sauce (I don't eat breakfast due to intermittent fasting). Now it's oats, almond milk, almond butter, blueberries, cacao nibs, honey and cinnamon for lunch, pistachios as an afternoon snack, pomegranate juice when I get home, then pasta/rice/potato but with homemade sauces using ginger/garlic/etc. and far more vegetables. Using fish and chicken more, have completely cut out pork from the diet.
I was running the sub primarily whilst learning about screenplay writing, but I've noticed it's pushing me toward learning more about boxing. Anyway, I've found there's a guy in my area who offers 1 on 1 boxing training, and I've been researching into how to become a boxing trainer myself and seen that there are courses you can take to become qualified to run amateur boxing clubs.
Could be the sub pushing me toward my true passions?
During my research I've been coming across the notion of the "flow state" a lot, and it's making me want to start meditating again. I've noticed the sub can push me into flow state more naturally. It's like in my normal life, I'm very out of the moment, say it was a film, I feel like I see things at about 50 frames per second, but the sub has helped to increase this to say 100 frames per second. Far more present, far more focused, quieter mind.
“You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend.”
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Feeling happier today, could be because of getting more rest over the weekend. More social and cheerful with coworkers this morning.
I did have two beers on Saturday but didn't go too overboard. Had ED on Sunday morning though. It made me really really angry, had to leave the house and be on my own for about 45 minutes to cool off. It frustrated me because I was hoping due to the detox this would be a problem of the past, but it seems like drinking is a no no for me. It's really frustrating when two beers throw me off and other people can drink plenty and still have sex that night.
My diet has taken a huge turn due to the sub. Previously my diet would consist of chicken burgers for lunch and pasta with chicken/porn and a sauce (I don't eat breakfast due to intermittent fasting). Now it's oats, almond milk, almond butter, blueberries, cacao nibs, honey and cinnamon for lunch, pistachios as an afternoon snack, pomegranate juice when I get home, then pasta/rice/potato but with homemade sauces using ginger/garlic/etc. and far more vegetables. Using fish and chicken more, have completely cut out pork from the diet.
I was running the sub primarily whilst learning about screenplay writing, but I've noticed it's pushing me toward learning more about boxing. Anyway, I've found there's a guy in my area who offers 1 on 1 boxing training, and I've been researching into how to become a boxing trainer myself and seen that there are courses you can take to become qualified to run amateur boxing clubs.
Could be the sub pushing me toward my true passions?
During my research I've been coming across the notion of the "flow state" a lot, and it's making me want to start meditating again. I've noticed the sub can push me into flow state more naturally. It's like in my normal life, I'm very out of the moment, say it was a film, I feel like I see things at about 50 frames per second, but the sub has helped to increase this to say 100 frames per second. Far more present, far more focused, quieter mind.
“You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend.”
