08-17-2017, 04:18 AM
Day 22
MLS
I've practicing open focus a lot ever since my last post, which is when I got into it. Hard to say if I'm going with or against the sub, but I know that the last time I learned about it I couldn't keep myself focused on it for very long. Now it's like it instantly became a habit to practice it all the time. Atm I think its very helpful, but of course I'm purposefully avoiding narrow focus, which I usually associate with doing something productive. Which, of course, is the problem. Burnout. But, gotta go overboard to learn at first. I've sent two job applications lately. One was a bit weird and the other one was really out there. I have no idea how the future will look. Kinda scary and lacking control.
DMSI
Now much to say here, but I think what's left of dmsi is my increased willingness to sometimes just hold that eye contact and enjoy it and enjoy letting some special lady know I'm interested in her through that. And those times I don't even mind if they then look away and get uncomfortable. I just feel good about it. There was one waiter that I looked at like this when we were out with the gf. She wasn't our waiter initially, but she soon hovered and took over our table. At first she was looking at me and being talkative, but then later she'd seem embarrassed and looked down all the time. She then tipped me/us to go see this exhibit they had in the back room, even if the place was just closing and they didn't seem to guide anyone else there. Cool. Ego boost.
MLS
I've practicing open focus a lot ever since my last post, which is when I got into it. Hard to say if I'm going with or against the sub, but I know that the last time I learned about it I couldn't keep myself focused on it for very long. Now it's like it instantly became a habit to practice it all the time. Atm I think its very helpful, but of course I'm purposefully avoiding narrow focus, which I usually associate with doing something productive. Which, of course, is the problem. Burnout. But, gotta go overboard to learn at first. I've sent two job applications lately. One was a bit weird and the other one was really out there. I have no idea how the future will look. Kinda scary and lacking control.
DMSI
Now much to say here, but I think what's left of dmsi is my increased willingness to sometimes just hold that eye contact and enjoy it and enjoy letting some special lady know I'm interested in her through that. And those times I don't even mind if they then look away and get uncomfortable. I just feel good about it. There was one waiter that I looked at like this when we were out with the gf. She wasn't our waiter initially, but she soon hovered and took over our table. At first she was looking at me and being talkative, but then later she'd seem embarrassed and looked down all the time. She then tipped me/us to go see this exhibit they had in the back room, even if the place was just closing and they didn't seem to guide anyone else there. Cool. Ego boost.
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