08-10-2017, 02:06 PM
The anger is back.
While the past few days have been relatively quiet, today was characterized by pure very deep anger. I was openly angry and snapped at people that acted smug and entitled, I felt burningly angry towards people that I perceived to take advantage of me, angry at people for telling me how to do things when they themselves couldn't do them properly at all. I even yelled furiously at my dad in a dream last night.
I am not sure but I have a hunch that this is related to the long past days of elementary school and even kindergarten. It just ominously reminds me of it.
Interesting things is that as soon as I release the anger verbally (doesn't matter if I raise my voice or calmly express what angers me) it is gone. No mental replay, no sulking, no 'I am better than thou'. Well ... like really released. Maybe ... is this how such a state of mind should be dealt with in a healthy way?
While the past few days have been relatively quiet, today was characterized by pure very deep anger. I was openly angry and snapped at people that acted smug and entitled, I felt burningly angry towards people that I perceived to take advantage of me, angry at people for telling me how to do things when they themselves couldn't do them properly at all. I even yelled furiously at my dad in a dream last night.
I am not sure but I have a hunch that this is related to the long past days of elementary school and even kindergarten. It just ominously reminds me of it.
Interesting things is that as soon as I release the anger verbally (doesn't matter if I raise my voice or calmly express what angers me) it is gone. No mental replay, no sulking, no 'I am better than thou'. Well ... like really released. Maybe ... is this how such a state of mind should be dealt with in a healthy way?
_ - Third Stone From The Sun - _
