08-10-2017, 01:19 PM
Well I haven't really been reading the forums, except for Shannon's Journal Discussion.
I've just been feeling really angry and discontent with my life. It's not just related to girls either. I feel angry because I just don't like what's going on in my life. I have to go back to finish taking classes, get a degree, and graduate. I don't want to really leave college life at the moment, but I'll have to. I don't like living with my parents when I come back to my hometown. So I feel like I should have already gotten my own place that I own/pay rent for. And really I kind of hate that I want "more" in life and that I'm not happy with the "average". Ignorance is bliss as they say. Part of me wishes that I would have had an "average" life and been happy with it and never thought about having more. Instead, I feel that I've had a life that varied a lot at times instead of being just awesome or displeasing. But the parts of my life that have been displeasing still feel that way. Sometimes I feel like I'm chained, held back, and that it's not possible to achieve the freedom I'd love to make a permanent part of my life. Times like these, I just feel anger and I want to punch something until I can't punch anymore.
I sure hope that Shannon's next DMSI release is a quantum leap in terms of effectiveness. I hope that soon DMSI will be at a point in development where Shannon can say "If you run it for x amount of time, following the directions, and don't get the results, then you should stop." I just want to know if this program will ever work for me. So far, I can firmly say that no, it hasn't.
I just had to vent somewhere, but I meant everything I said. Time to go train.
I've just been feeling really angry and discontent with my life. It's not just related to girls either. I feel angry because I just don't like what's going on in my life. I have to go back to finish taking classes, get a degree, and graduate. I don't want to really leave college life at the moment, but I'll have to. I don't like living with my parents when I come back to my hometown. So I feel like I should have already gotten my own place that I own/pay rent for. And really I kind of hate that I want "more" in life and that I'm not happy with the "average". Ignorance is bliss as they say. Part of me wishes that I would have had an "average" life and been happy with it and never thought about having more. Instead, I feel that I've had a life that varied a lot at times instead of being just awesome or displeasing. But the parts of my life that have been displeasing still feel that way. Sometimes I feel like I'm chained, held back, and that it's not possible to achieve the freedom I'd love to make a permanent part of my life. Times like these, I just feel anger and I want to punch something until I can't punch anymore.
I sure hope that Shannon's next DMSI release is a quantum leap in terms of effectiveness. I hope that soon DMSI will be at a point in development where Shannon can say "If you run it for x amount of time, following the directions, and don't get the results, then you should stop." I just want to know if this program will ever work for me. So far, I can firmly say that no, it hasn't.
I just had to vent somewhere, but I meant everything I said. Time to go train.
