08-09-2017, 05:22 AM
Trying to figure out where everything went wrong for me. I think the hardest thing in my life has been dealing with the fact I have no real reason to be as messed up as I am except just doing it to myself. My parents were great growing up, more than I could ever ask for. But somehow I just screwed everything up in my life and I don't know why.
My biggest mistake with this whole healing process is getting too absorbed into the stories and attachments of the emotions that come up or just outright denying them. It's been hard to find a middle ground, but I think I'm discovering it. I have to acknowledge my pain, but the focus should be on healing and letting go, not re-experiencing it or obsessing on it. Over identification with the emotions results in me getting stuck and playing out the victim mentality.
I hope one day I don't have to work so hard to maintain a sense of peace and I automatically feel positive rather than trying to constantly disconnect and remind myself I'm not these negative things I tell myself.
My biggest mistake with this whole healing process is getting too absorbed into the stories and attachments of the emotions that come up or just outright denying them. It's been hard to find a middle ground, but I think I'm discovering it. I have to acknowledge my pain, but the focus should be on healing and letting go, not re-experiencing it or obsessing on it. Over identification with the emotions results in me getting stuck and playing out the victim mentality.
I hope one day I don't have to work so hard to maintain a sense of peace and I automatically feel positive rather than trying to constantly disconnect and remind myself I'm not these negative things I tell myself.
