08-06-2017, 02:30 AM
I think that I am too afraid to visualize and thus I don't allow myself to do it. Sounds strange? It totally is.
I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.
That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.
I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.
That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.
_ - Third Stone From The Sun - _
