08-02-2017, 04:32 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-02-2017, 04:36 PM by dissonance.)
Not sure if placebo, but probably not. I feel that on the inside I'm more comfortable and even excited about the notion of flirting with a girl and escalating with her. When I used to think about that sort of interaction, it'd give me anxiety about having to be me and genuine, and let go of my negative ego that make me anxious and act not like myself.
But now, for some reason, when I imagine or think about that sort of interaction/scenario, I feel sort of excited, and not as anxious about it, as if it was a dangerous foreign land of potential embarrassment, but rather, a new, exciting world of self-discovery and intimate human connection.
One thing that still is making me anxious is when or if and how I should tell the girl that I'm a virgin, and the fact that I'm going to be feeling very vulnerable and probably embarrassed (even though I know I shouldn't be) in that moment.
Maybe DMSI will remove that embarrassment/anxiety about this?
Anyways continuing on with Version A, 4 hours a day, until I start working at my second job, and start socializing more, and have more consistent exposure to girls/women.
But now, for some reason, when I imagine or think about that sort of interaction/scenario, I feel sort of excited, and not as anxious about it, as if it was a dangerous foreign land of potential embarrassment, but rather, a new, exciting world of self-discovery and intimate human connection.
One thing that still is making me anxious is when or if and how I should tell the girl that I'm a virgin, and the fact that I'm going to be feeling very vulnerable and probably embarrassed (even though I know I shouldn't be) in that moment.
Maybe DMSI will remove that embarrassment/anxiety about this?
Anyways continuing on with Version A, 4 hours a day, until I start working at my second job, and start socializing more, and have more consistent exposure to girls/women.
