08-01-2017, 02:38 AM
So...
Yesterday I broke down. Sat up in the middle of the night and cried for an hour, tears running like a waterfall down. I had been listening to a podcast talk by Steve Mayeda "The Man You Want To Be", actually I had been listening to multiple talks by him. But it was something in this talk that hit something deep inside me together with DMSI.
I began writing in my (personal) journal and just expressed myself in a way I can't say I've done earlier.
What the f*ck does it matter if "I'm" successful? What the f*ck does it matter how many holes that get my magnificent d*ck wet?
What the f*ck does all of it matter, if not the COMPLETE Me. The REAL ME is there to experience it? What does it mean to be rich, when you are shutting out the social part of you? What does it mean to f*ck, when you are not allowing yourself to connect with the women.
I am not saying this is something you have to do and that you can't be rich without being social, nor that you can't f*ck women if you connect. I'm talking about my experiences and how I'm suppressing myself in different situations, and stopping myself from being, well from being me. The complete and real me. It's not about being successful, it's not about all that crappy shit society tells us. It's about being complete. Complete as a human, complete as a man. Complete as an individual.
Everything else right now just seems, well useless.
I'm gonna be doing a course called "Knowing Your Shadow: Becoming Intimate With All That You Are" together with "Self-Authoring". Both programs to help me overcome past scars, getting in touch with my current personal faults, and strengths. But also to get something on the way ahead for the future.
After I woke up tonight I feel like a new person. I am just so relaxed, so loving and yet filled with distraught and a feeling of grief. A grief over myself, over the suppression of myself. But here is also where the confidence/loving/relaxedness comes it. The confidence in knowing that I can and will get in better touch with myself, the love over my own disabilities and from where they come, the relaxation of knowing it will all work out fine.
Since yesterday, I really DON'T wanna go away from DMSI anywhere near the coming 6 months. I feel like the growth from it and with realizations like this. There's not much that's gonna be as beneficial to me as this... I can imagine it'll just be a short while before resistance kicks in making me wanna change subs again. But I also have a genuine interest in MLS.
With this, I'm gonna be wrapping up my DMSI journal. It's starting to become more about my personal journey rather than about DMSI. So I think it's time for me to get out while I still can
If I do notice anything interesting or something I think can help develop DMSI is any way I'll make sure to post about it. But this is more or less the end of this journal. I will continue DMSI A for at least another 2 weeks.
Since my last post, new people are approaching and talking to me on a daily basis, people looking at me have a look of awe in their eyes on a completely new level and beautiful girls just HAVE to be around me.
DMSI is one heck of a program and I can't recommend it enough, and this is not the finished version. But I do think you shouldn't expect a "quick-fix" for your life. This is in my opinion meant to be run as a minimum 6-month program, just because of all the many changes it will make in your life.
Shannon, thank you for making such amazing products. Nothing but respect for the work you put in. Never thought I would use anything such as subliminals in my life, but it was your ethics and moral that made me at least try it out. DMSI has now made profound changes in my life all for the better. A great way to start my young life and look upon the challenges ahead.
All love.
Yesterday I broke down. Sat up in the middle of the night and cried for an hour, tears running like a waterfall down. I had been listening to a podcast talk by Steve Mayeda "The Man You Want To Be", actually I had been listening to multiple talks by him. But it was something in this talk that hit something deep inside me together with DMSI.
I began writing in my (personal) journal and just expressed myself in a way I can't say I've done earlier.
What the f*ck does it matter if "I'm" successful? What the f*ck does it matter how many holes that get my magnificent d*ck wet?
What the f*ck does all of it matter, if not the COMPLETE Me. The REAL ME is there to experience it? What does it mean to be rich, when you are shutting out the social part of you? What does it mean to f*ck, when you are not allowing yourself to connect with the women.
I am not saying this is something you have to do and that you can't be rich without being social, nor that you can't f*ck women if you connect. I'm talking about my experiences and how I'm suppressing myself in different situations, and stopping myself from being, well from being me. The complete and real me. It's not about being successful, it's not about all that crappy shit society tells us. It's about being complete. Complete as a human, complete as a man. Complete as an individual.
Everything else right now just seems, well useless.
I'm gonna be doing a course called "Knowing Your Shadow: Becoming Intimate With All That You Are" together with "Self-Authoring". Both programs to help me overcome past scars, getting in touch with my current personal faults, and strengths. But also to get something on the way ahead for the future.
After I woke up tonight I feel like a new person. I am just so relaxed, so loving and yet filled with distraught and a feeling of grief. A grief over myself, over the suppression of myself. But here is also where the confidence/loving/relaxedness comes it. The confidence in knowing that I can and will get in better touch with myself, the love over my own disabilities and from where they come, the relaxation of knowing it will all work out fine.
Since yesterday, I really DON'T wanna go away from DMSI anywhere near the coming 6 months. I feel like the growth from it and with realizations like this. There's not much that's gonna be as beneficial to me as this... I can imagine it'll just be a short while before resistance kicks in making me wanna change subs again. But I also have a genuine interest in MLS.
With this, I'm gonna be wrapping up my DMSI journal. It's starting to become more about my personal journey rather than about DMSI. So I think it's time for me to get out while I still can
If I do notice anything interesting or something I think can help develop DMSI is any way I'll make sure to post about it. But this is more or less the end of this journal. I will continue DMSI A for at least another 2 weeks.
Since my last post, new people are approaching and talking to me on a daily basis, people looking at me have a look of awe in their eyes on a completely new level and beautiful girls just HAVE to be around me.
DMSI is one heck of a program and I can't recommend it enough, and this is not the finished version. But I do think you shouldn't expect a "quick-fix" for your life. This is in my opinion meant to be run as a minimum 6-month program, just because of all the many changes it will make in your life.
Shannon, thank you for making such amazing products. Nothing but respect for the work you put in. Never thought I would use anything such as subliminals in my life, but it was your ethics and moral that made me at least try it out. DMSI has now made profound changes in my life all for the better. A great way to start my young life and look upon the challenges ahead.
All love.
