07-28-2017, 10:49 PM
(07-28-2017, 01:21 PM)Jake2015 Wrote: Day 8 Update - Friday 28th July 2017
Before I begin I want to add an addition here to for yesterday, which is that whilst so frustrated and angry I had recurring thoughts in my mind where I was blaming my parents or circumstances for the way I didn't perform as I had wanted academically, even though I'm old to know that the past doesn't and shouldn't be the basis for excuses or victim play but when I'm angry or upset then the mind plays these games.
On to today:
No difference noticed.
I have been thinking about how I should do some work, however unable to and unmotivated to.
8 days on MLS and yet to feel or notice anything - however it is MONO at the moment but at being more than 5G tech even with mono I was hoping for something by now.
I guess maybe mono won't work on me but lets hope as that is all I have.
If u read my journal then I am doing the exacting same thing. I was blaming my mom for my fucked up academic performance. Now it's gone. This means we are going thru same stuff and I haven't read anything but I feel as if foundation is being built. Believe me Jake we r getting there..
