07-28-2017, 02:17 PM
Couple of posts from Shannon's journal discussion thread:
7/16/2017:
So just for your records since I don't journal, I was doing DMSI 3.1A 4 hours a day for a bit, maybe 2-3 weeks. It was hard to notice difference from 2 hours a day, I was feeling maybe more tired. On both of those loop amounts, I was feeling less and less needy, and having seemingly good healing going on. But for the past 1-2 weeks, I was doing 6-8 hours a day, and I started getting SUPER tired. I was getting my full sleep but still feeling as if i was very sleep deprivated. Also, I had anxiety increase for a bit, and also depressive feelings, I was also getting sort of "attachy" and caring for approval with this one girl I know, constantly wanting her attention, etc. I'm stopping DMSI for maybe a week or so to try to see what the bloom feels like, and also to recuperate my energy and mood because of the 6-8hrs draining those so much.
One thing I was thinking about was that I started the 6-8 hrs a day routine right as I was trying to mentally and physically prepare (e.g. fixing sleep routine, exercise, meditate etc) for a walk-in interview at this new restaurant. Getting this new job and stuff I feel is a huge sort of "requirement" kind of for me to get laid because in my mind I want to wait till I move out (currently live with mom n sis) to start any sort of relationship or new social life. I view getting that new job as the "beginning" of a new era, so maybe the 6-8 loops was causing some super fear about it, or resistance, not sure. Anyways just thought the detail possibly might be useful.
7/28/2017:
On another note, i had a first super obvious blatant "hit" from DMSI yesterday. I went to a recruiting convention for my friends company to help him get promoted. During one of the presentations, the girl sitting on my right started getting sort of flustered and constantly preening her hair, and one time she blatantly snuck a quick glance at me lol. Later on while exiting, I stopped to shake hands with some guy i met to say bye, and by chance she was right there (i stopped right in front of her, she was on my left) and she was clearly getting super flustered and looking around and out of the corner of my eye she was getting fidgety or something, maybe trying to get my attention. AHHH I can't decide if I wanna do AM6 or continue with DMSI lmao! The sexual performance modules sound really fun to experience for when I find a partner to lose my V with, and it seems results are starting to come... Do you think I should start trying version B or is there no way for you to tell; and if i do switch to B, do i need a break?
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I can't decide if I want to continue DMSI or start my next AM6 run.
7/16/2017:
So just for your records since I don't journal, I was doing DMSI 3.1A 4 hours a day for a bit, maybe 2-3 weeks. It was hard to notice difference from 2 hours a day, I was feeling maybe more tired. On both of those loop amounts, I was feeling less and less needy, and having seemingly good healing going on. But for the past 1-2 weeks, I was doing 6-8 hours a day, and I started getting SUPER tired. I was getting my full sleep but still feeling as if i was very sleep deprivated. Also, I had anxiety increase for a bit, and also depressive feelings, I was also getting sort of "attachy" and caring for approval with this one girl I know, constantly wanting her attention, etc. I'm stopping DMSI for maybe a week or so to try to see what the bloom feels like, and also to recuperate my energy and mood because of the 6-8hrs draining those so much.
One thing I was thinking about was that I started the 6-8 hrs a day routine right as I was trying to mentally and physically prepare (e.g. fixing sleep routine, exercise, meditate etc) for a walk-in interview at this new restaurant. Getting this new job and stuff I feel is a huge sort of "requirement" kind of for me to get laid because in my mind I want to wait till I move out (currently live with mom n sis) to start any sort of relationship or new social life. I view getting that new job as the "beginning" of a new era, so maybe the 6-8 loops was causing some super fear about it, or resistance, not sure. Anyways just thought the detail possibly might be useful.
7/28/2017:
On another note, i had a first super obvious blatant "hit" from DMSI yesterday. I went to a recruiting convention for my friends company to help him get promoted. During one of the presentations, the girl sitting on my right started getting sort of flustered and constantly preening her hair, and one time she blatantly snuck a quick glance at me lol. Later on while exiting, I stopped to shake hands with some guy i met to say bye, and by chance she was right there (i stopped right in front of her, she was on my left) and she was clearly getting super flustered and looking around and out of the corner of my eye she was getting fidgety or something, maybe trying to get my attention. AHHH I can't decide if I wanna do AM6 or continue with DMSI lmao! The sexual performance modules sound really fun to experience for when I find a partner to lose my V with, and it seems results are starting to come... Do you think I should start trying version B or is there no way for you to tell; and if i do switch to B, do i need a break?
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I can't decide if I want to continue DMSI or start my next AM6 run.
