07-25-2017, 06:33 PM
Day 6
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHZtMNbrmWE
The last few days have been interesting for me, in terms of how the sub is changing me. In some cases it's extremely subtle what's happening, and in other cases it's extremely pronounced.
The part of the sub that is most prominent for me is the success programming. The, I can do anything, subgoal is resonating with me a lot. It's making me look at the world a little differently, and I can feel the changes happening inside of my brain.
I feel like I have been slowly getting more done, limitations that I may have posed on myself are disappearing, and I no longer feel stuck.
When I was on DMSI, I always had this yearning to be free. With MLS, I no longer feel that way, instead, I can see what freedom looks like and it's a viability. It's not a pie in the sky dream, something that I gaze out at from an iron wall.
My apathy towards women has also dissipated a lot. On Sunday I drove K to a Japanese supermarket in Jersey City to pick up some food and hang out. I was in a really playful mood, and apparently, so was she. As I was driving back from the shopping, she started to grope me in the car. This went on for a few minutes until I pulled over somewhere and we had ourselves a hot make-out session.
Yesterday and today, I can almost feel the energy of the women around me, and, interestingly enough, when someone I find attractive passes by me, I can perfectly visualize what sex with that person would be like.
My brain has gone into overdrive about so many things recently, similar to the visualizations of women. Even my dreams feel more distinct.
Today was the first day I had a dull headache. Nothing that has me reaching for a bottle of Advil, but, it's there.
I also get a few mini bouts of exhaustion, but, again, nothing that's overwhelming.
I keep thinking to myself that if only in 6 days I feel this much from the sub, what happens when I'm on it for a few weeks, or a few months? What happens when I get back on DMSI after my brain has been optimized to absorb, process, and execute information at a much more rapid pace?
The answer right now is, I don't know. I can't fathom it. I don't know how much I will change over the next few weeks, let alone the next few months.
This is a journey. It's a completely different journey than that of DMSI.
And right now, there is no real destination in sight. It's just one day at a time...
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHZtMNbrmWE
The last few days have been interesting for me, in terms of how the sub is changing me. In some cases it's extremely subtle what's happening, and in other cases it's extremely pronounced.
The part of the sub that is most prominent for me is the success programming. The, I can do anything, subgoal is resonating with me a lot. It's making me look at the world a little differently, and I can feel the changes happening inside of my brain.
I feel like I have been slowly getting more done, limitations that I may have posed on myself are disappearing, and I no longer feel stuck.
When I was on DMSI, I always had this yearning to be free. With MLS, I no longer feel that way, instead, I can see what freedom looks like and it's a viability. It's not a pie in the sky dream, something that I gaze out at from an iron wall.
My apathy towards women has also dissipated a lot. On Sunday I drove K to a Japanese supermarket in Jersey City to pick up some food and hang out. I was in a really playful mood, and apparently, so was she. As I was driving back from the shopping, she started to grope me in the car. This went on for a few minutes until I pulled over somewhere and we had ourselves a hot make-out session.
Yesterday and today, I can almost feel the energy of the women around me, and, interestingly enough, when someone I find attractive passes by me, I can perfectly visualize what sex with that person would be like.
My brain has gone into overdrive about so many things recently, similar to the visualizations of women. Even my dreams feel more distinct.
Today was the first day I had a dull headache. Nothing that has me reaching for a bottle of Advil, but, it's there.
I also get a few mini bouts of exhaustion, but, again, nothing that's overwhelming.
I keep thinking to myself that if only in 6 days I feel this much from the sub, what happens when I'm on it for a few weeks, or a few months? What happens when I get back on DMSI after my brain has been optimized to absorb, process, and execute information at a much more rapid pace?
The answer right now is, I don't know. I can't fathom it. I don't know how much I will change over the next few weeks, let alone the next few months.
This is a journey. It's a completely different journey than that of DMSI.
And right now, there is no real destination in sight. It's just one day at a time...
