07-24-2017, 11:52 AM
No growth to report of, but what I've gained on a different aspect I think is worth mentioning and I attribute it to this sub.
So I've been on vacation with family and not in my own home. Doing my best although using a different audio output, not being able to devote enough time in the day/night, as a result I believe this is why my breasts aren't feeling as heavy/full, but it hasn't bothered me in the least.
First day, we went to the beach and normally I'd feel very shy, contained, watching to see which woman at the beach looked perfect and what about me wasn't perfect so I could self deprecate. This feeling of having to appear perfect, do everything perfect, is melting away. Even with the standard I placed on myself to post here every Friday, to do a "perfect" job in documenting, has melted away. Now I feel like posting whenever I have something I really feel like saying, and not because I feel I have to say something. It's going from being out there to being in here.
At the beach, I had on my bikini on and the confidence I felt was liberating. I was enjoying the essence, the moment I was in, with the people I love more than anything, with no care in the world if I looked perfect or not, or if anyone else did for that matter. It wasn't important to me anymore.
To see if this was a fluke, I experimented again and again; and the same thing happened over and over. I wasn't feeling shy anymore, confident in my self and in my little bikini, walking around freely, being checked out and instead of shying away from them like before I was energetically receiving these compliments, being tossed by the waves, laughing so much - I was having fun.
This is a huge gain for me.
So I've been on vacation with family and not in my own home. Doing my best although using a different audio output, not being able to devote enough time in the day/night, as a result I believe this is why my breasts aren't feeling as heavy/full, but it hasn't bothered me in the least.
First day, we went to the beach and normally I'd feel very shy, contained, watching to see which woman at the beach looked perfect and what about me wasn't perfect so I could self deprecate. This feeling of having to appear perfect, do everything perfect, is melting away. Even with the standard I placed on myself to post here every Friday, to do a "perfect" job in documenting, has melted away. Now I feel like posting whenever I have something I really feel like saying, and not because I feel I have to say something. It's going from being out there to being in here.
At the beach, I had on my bikini on and the confidence I felt was liberating. I was enjoying the essence, the moment I was in, with the people I love more than anything, with no care in the world if I looked perfect or not, or if anyone else did for that matter. It wasn't important to me anymore.
To see if this was a fluke, I experimented again and again; and the same thing happened over and over. I wasn't feeling shy anymore, confident in my self and in my little bikini, walking around freely, being checked out and instead of shying away from them like before I was energetically receiving these compliments, being tossed by the waves, laughing so much - I was having fun.
This is a huge gain for me.
