07-23-2017, 09:26 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-23-2017, 09:43 AM by Raikahoken.)
Day 65 (Day 23 of B)
5 loops ultrasonic
This weekend was quite fun overall. On Saturday I went to the jeweler to collect a dog tag that I printed with my company logo. It's a frivolity. But I found that I didn't specify that I wanted it engraved. They printed it instead. It doesn't look nice. Again another braindead mistake, I would have specified it last time. I was so annoyed with myself.
Then I met a friend and watched a movie. I didn't enjoy spending time with him anymore, it becomes more obvious that he's someone with lots of limiting beliefs and lives to avoid pain rather than seek fun.
After that I met the 19 year old girl from 2 weeks ago. I was still annoyed from the dog tag and from my friend, so I wasn't in the best mood. I just stuck to the game plan and executed it to get into her pants again. Chill conversation over coffee. I wasn't in the mood to talk honestly. I casually mentioned let's go to the hotel we went last week, she was like ok. It's surprising to see how low this girl's ASD is. So we went there. No resistance at all. She was very horny. I was quite lazy to escalate but she helped me along. I lasted not very long but longer than the last time with her. Afterward she asked me about my experiences. She herself only had only been sexual with one guy and one girl. No emotional clinginess, I feel a FWB vibe from her. Well that's all I want from her anyway. Let's call her M1 now.
Watched a dance show at night. I had a good talk with my mates. One friend drove me home.
A girl on Tinder messaged me first. It's rare a girl messaged me first. She's hot too. I replied slow and she would reply very fast. Maybe just an attention ho. We'll see.
Day 66 (Day 24 of B)
5 loops ultrasonic
Today was just a day full of dance classes and rehearsals. 7 hours of dance in total. Really exhausting. The instructor of the afternoon class was really cute. She touched me a few times to correct me and we held nice eye contact a few times.
Another hot girl flirted with me on Bumble. Quite a rare thing for me. She's a pole dancer and agreed to show me some pole dancing. In the past I would have gone after setting up the logistics more aggressively but I was too lazy. Resistance? Anyhow, it's nice to have hot girls showing interest finally.
M1 asked me out for movie and drinks. As I was noting her down in my spreadsheet, I realized she's the worst among all the girls that have been my FWB and above. She just barely passes my standard. I resolve not to taint my hall of fame again!
I thought long and hard of what I want in life right now. It seems to me that DMSI is bringing out a more primitive part of me. My conscious thought has less control now and my instincts are amplified. I think it is a good thing for now. I haven't been in touch with my instincts and I don't really know what I am really interested in. What I want from DMSI is a knowledge of what I am really interested in deep down. Once I have a clearer idea, I will move on to MLS. Right now I feel that if I move to MLS it will be like stepping on the gas without a clear direction. So it's DMSI for now. I'll give version B at least one more week.
5 loops ultrasonic
This weekend was quite fun overall. On Saturday I went to the jeweler to collect a dog tag that I printed with my company logo. It's a frivolity. But I found that I didn't specify that I wanted it engraved. They printed it instead. It doesn't look nice. Again another braindead mistake, I would have specified it last time. I was so annoyed with myself.
Then I met a friend and watched a movie. I didn't enjoy spending time with him anymore, it becomes more obvious that he's someone with lots of limiting beliefs and lives to avoid pain rather than seek fun.
After that I met the 19 year old girl from 2 weeks ago. I was still annoyed from the dog tag and from my friend, so I wasn't in the best mood. I just stuck to the game plan and executed it to get into her pants again. Chill conversation over coffee. I wasn't in the mood to talk honestly. I casually mentioned let's go to the hotel we went last week, she was like ok. It's surprising to see how low this girl's ASD is. So we went there. No resistance at all. She was very horny. I was quite lazy to escalate but she helped me along. I lasted not very long but longer than the last time with her. Afterward she asked me about my experiences. She herself only had only been sexual with one guy and one girl. No emotional clinginess, I feel a FWB vibe from her. Well that's all I want from her anyway. Let's call her M1 now.
Watched a dance show at night. I had a good talk with my mates. One friend drove me home.
A girl on Tinder messaged me first. It's rare a girl messaged me first. She's hot too. I replied slow and she would reply very fast. Maybe just an attention ho. We'll see.
Day 66 (Day 24 of B)
5 loops ultrasonic
Today was just a day full of dance classes and rehearsals. 7 hours of dance in total. Really exhausting. The instructor of the afternoon class was really cute. She touched me a few times to correct me and we held nice eye contact a few times.
Another hot girl flirted with me on Bumble. Quite a rare thing for me. She's a pole dancer and agreed to show me some pole dancing. In the past I would have gone after setting up the logistics more aggressively but I was too lazy. Resistance? Anyhow, it's nice to have hot girls showing interest finally.
M1 asked me out for movie and drinks. As I was noting her down in my spreadsheet, I realized she's the worst among all the girls that have been my FWB and above. She just barely passes my standard. I resolve not to taint my hall of fame again!
I thought long and hard of what I want in life right now. It seems to me that DMSI is bringing out a more primitive part of me. My conscious thought has less control now and my instincts are amplified. I think it is a good thing for now. I haven't been in touch with my instincts and I don't really know what I am really interested in. What I want from DMSI is a knowledge of what I am really interested in deep down. Once I have a clearer idea, I will move on to MLS. Right now I feel that if I move to MLS it will be like stepping on the gas without a clear direction. So it's DMSI for now. I'll give version B at least one more week.
